Sleepy mind, short post.

Day 2 of trip so far. Bought loads of things already. Got a watch , a shoe, some shirts, some nail polish. Some prettaeh awesomeeeee chocolate!! Got to taste some really awesome food every meal. Life's also more slow paced when I am here. Everything is good. :3 Oh yeah!! Got a really sweet-honey coated message too. Internet is really one thing no one can leave without. It make things more fun and money saving $$$$ :3 K, I know this post will look like some piece of shit. B'cause the enter can't freakin' work to give me some paragraph. Neither can I post pictures. -.- I am going to bed.

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Today is a good day, shall use all the positive energy to focus on my studying!! :3 

I CAN DO IT!! :D

I will make the impossible, POSSIBLE.

It's really nice to have people that care about you around. Making you happy when you are down. :) 

Another stage of life.

Yes, this toad has finally go on to the next stage of her life. HAVING A REAL JOB. 

Under a real boss, getting a real wage, facing the society.

It's really a different feeling altogether as compared to me working in my very own mother's fruit stall. 

(Or maybe, there isn't much to sales about there. OR MAYBE, there are just chairs that I can sit on.) 

But then again, there's this theory that no matter what, kids are always kids in parent's eyes, so you know, I don't need to do as much when I work with them BECAUSE I am a "little kid". 

Job's have been fine, people there are nice to me so far. (Hopefully, they find me nice too.) 

Hopefully, my sales are also good, to me. (HOPEFULLY, TO MY BOSS(ES) TOO.)

Pretty looking forward to the day I take my pay. Wonder how the feeling would be like. 

You know how people says about the legendary FIRST PAY. $$$$. 

Hmmmm. I think I better think about my studies first. I am still a student, with two UTs coming my way. 

GOOD LUCK TO MEEEEEEEE. OMG. 

GOD BLESS ME.

朋友。

对我来说，朋友这玩儿，总是可欲不可求。
它会在你最没有防范和准备的时候偷袭你。
有些友情会好的，让你感谢老天爷把他们次给你，让你觉得你是世界上最幸福的傻小子。
不管怎样，每一段友谊都会刻苦铭心，　
可是天下无不散的宴席，时间久了，友情会平息，会淡忘，甚至消失。

死党变成了好朋友，好朋友变朋友，而朋友变成匿名的朋友。

可能有一天，你会发现那个人已经不是那个会担心和关心你的那个人了。　

所以，我只能说，珍惜每一段真挚的友情，因为你永远不知道老天什么时候要让他们离开你。


珍惜吧，孩子！

Sometimes in life, not everything's your fault.
Although sometimes, depending on how you see it, might saw that you're in the wrong.
But guess what? Everything happened for a reason.

Everyone had come and make an imprint in your life is essential, for if he/she hadn't come into your life, you would not be who you are.

I am happy that all these happened. Cheer up. If you saw this. You know who you are.

Don't blame on yourself too hard. You are you. I like and befriend with you for who you are.

THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER, THOSE WHO MATTER DON'T MIND.


REMEMBER THAT.  

Muscle cramps.

DAMN THE SQUATS AND JOGS. 

MUSCLES ON MY THIGHS AND BUTT HURT MUTHAFCUKING BAD. 

STILL HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO DO MY WORKOUT. 

SIT-UPS AND PUSH-UPS FTW!!

Just hope that my tummy wouldn't hurt as badly or else...

OR I DON'T HAVE TO MOVE AT ALL. 

AND I WILL MOST PROBABLY DIE OF PAIN. 

I WILL SURVIVE!!

PS : This is a contradicting blog post as the pain has probably turned the blogger into some nonsensical person. 

I'm not kidding.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED THAT THIS IS A POST OF LONG NONSENSICAL RANTING.

How time can change one person's perceptive.

In the morning, I psycho-ed myself to never let food, be my source of comfort again. Never. I want my new life, my new self and I am going to get it no matter by hook or by crook.

But now, I just wish I can gorge myself with the food I love, because you know what? No one cares!!
I'm telling you. No one cares. It's said that, yea, my friends and family supports me, restricting me what I should eat and shouldn't eat. But guess what? When it's time to work out, they all pull out from it.

"I am tired." "I needa get this done by tonight." "I just ate, sorry."

All these excuses from time to time, given and shoved straight to my face.
But what can I do? Make a big fuss?

And when I do get my workout, I am being pinpointed at. "Your method won't work." "You're not doing it right." "You can go faster." "I did better that time, so you can too."

You know what? _|_
What's your ever highest weight huh and what's mine? Want to compare?

Every weight adds an extra effort I have to take to move my freaking body.
Why not you walk in my shoes huh? Add the weight on your body and see how it feels like?
See if you can "DO IT BETTER".

It's funny how a side of me understands that you are tired, you don't need this workout, you are just entertaining me, accompanying me so that it makes me happy, because you know that's what I want to do and this is what I want to do, it's none of your business, I shouldn't blame you. I should be laughing to myself you're trying your very best to workout together with me and that I shouldn't give up because its for my own good.

In this journey, I have conquered many temptations, having people eating things that I can't eat and having to eat alone, because I care. Having to tolerate with the pain that is so pain that I have to limb while walking. I have become so much stronger on the way.

But another side of me is just sick and tired, be it your excuses, the temptation, the aches I have to get everyday. It's crazy. Then again, maybe that is you, what can I do? You have the power to make the whole house be working out with you. But I can't.

So why am I trying so hard, when no one cares? NO ONE CARES. I am running out of motivation myself. So what I am 19, still wearing clothes like I have no motherfucking fashion sense. So what if I get fatter and fatter till the whole world shuns me, and I die with some freaking complications from some small disease.

JUST FORGET IT. FORGET IT.