Sunken mood.

Tonight's not the night for happy post. You have been warned.

Tonight's seemed to become a bad night after all.

You said that you hate people coming to ruin you. Why are ruining me?

Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to get such treatments from you?

Just what am I to you? Stupid ego shit jerk.

Are status on the social websites so important?

认识你的这两年，我自认对你问心无愧。帮你的也不少。从来也没亏待过你。

可是，为什么要这样，为什么好像什么事都好像针对我？

我到底做了什么？让你可以这么的讨厌我？

如果你的目的是要彻彻底底的打败我，那我可以和你说，你成功了。你满意了吗？

Just freaking get out of my life, like how you said you would. Totally get out of my life.

Away to a place I won't sense you, won't see you and don't ever come back.

Just give me back my life. Give me back the old me.

Or maybe, just try to fix it and get. it. right.

But I doubt it will ever happen.

If only things were much simpler.

I'm just that zombie.

I don't know why I would break down today. At this moment.

Maybe my inner self is surpressing all this a little too long and a little too hard.

And maybe I just don't want my sister to go through the same path as I did.

Even though it will be a little unfair for me then.

能救一个是一个。

Maybe, also, I am just sick and tired of being a zombie, going to school everyday without a fucking aim. Just going to school, for the grades, for the expectations. It's tiring.

This is not the life, I wanted, I wanted my kind of life to be exciting.

I want to live with burning passion, to do what I love, what I am good at.

But what can I do?

This night had proven everything.

Struggling and breaking down would just show to others how weak you are inside.

At the end of the day, even how much I struggle, nothing will change. Nothing.

After tonight, I will still be a Republic poly student, taking a diploma in Biomedical sciences.

With a fucking GPA that me and my parents are not satisfied with.

Best solution is just to continue to be that freaking zombie that empty vessel and pretend nothing happen. I am still happy and contented with every day. There's nothing wrong with me.

There's nothing wrong with me.

At least that the least I can do. For now.