Jailbreak or no jailbreak?

Right. So ever since I have been exposed to jailbreak. Learnt a bit here and there, I can proudly say, hey, I kinda like what I see after I jailbreak.

Free games, nice useful tweaks to make the iPod a better and more useful device. But hey. After having my iPhone 5 with me running so fast and everything just highlights even more and making me notice that; is my jailbreak making my iPod going slower?

Well, I don't know. Ever since I jailbroke, that's pretty much what I have experienced. Sadly, lagging and crashing becomes even more prominent especially with my iPhone 5 running as quickly as butter.

It is really tempting me to unjailbreak and move to the all new improved iOS 6. Since it is looking very cool on my iPhone. Looking all simple and nice, I just can't stand those notifications for me to update. Those stupid red numbers, increasing daily. All updating very much for the new iOS 6 which isn't much of a help to me since I'm still on iOS 5.1.1.

Jailbreaking is seriously a double headed dagger. I am still very much staying on it just because of the fact that I'm credit card-less, and that it is through jailbreak that I can get apps I want myself. Call me cheap stake if you want, but that's the only reason I can think of for me to stay on this very jailbreak.

Hence my move to clear almost everything else I don't need such as the other games, tweaks and such. All I can say is it's pathetic. But then again. I don't really care as long I get to play those I really like.

Jailbreak or not. I choose to stay to it now and hopefully a stable jailbreak for iOs 6 gonna come really soon and not choose to piss me off.

If the day comes where I should decide to give up my jailbreak. That would be the day where I would upgrade my iPod touch to the latest generation.

Trust me on this. The lack of jailbreak is the only reason I feel that now's not the time to buy anything from apple now other than the iPhone since that is the one and only device I will never jailbreak.

An act of kindness.

Maybe it's the fact that I commute more on the train more during the holidays due to work or I'm just simply bored when I'm on the way to work, totally late and in no mood to watch or play any games on my iPod.

I find myself more attentive to the ads on these platforms more often now.

Recently one that got me thinking was the one regarding the act of kindness.

I never really took it into heart even though the emphasis of the ad was to highlight that acts of kindness could be done in seconds in our busy schedules and busy was not an issue. But you know being in a society like Singapore who gives a shit. I mean seriously. I don't think half of the population even appreciates what you are doing. More over making Singapore a better place just by these act of kindness that many take for granted.

Affirmative from experiences. *nods*

But having to experience it myself. Acts of kindness do make a difference. You might just meet some one who will appreciate your efforts. Like me.

A accidental topple of my long awaited fries sure spoilt my day.

But an act by the manager to replace my fries sure made my day a whole lot better. Appreciating the fact that the manager didn't have to do it as it is none of macs fault that my fries got toppled on the floor.

I am deeply touched.

Suddenly motivated that I should be gracious in my own way or another.

忙碌。

好几天美动电脑了吧？此刻打字的感觉好像也生疏了。
我真的是夸张王说夸张话。LOL.

只能说，表面上我一直渴望的假期也没有多么的完美。
坦白说，这几天看来，我忙的和上学没什么两样。
好像还似乎觉得上学时，可能因为有上课当借口，好像还没现在那么忙。

明明是假期，概嘛搞的的脚像是踩了一白棵柠檬似的，酸！！！

妈妈一看我闲着就叫我做东做西的。
老板一看我暑假来了就排了一堆的工作。

跑来跑去，忙来忙去，为了什么呀？ 真是无聊。

累，有谁不累，为了钱，只能说，没办法~

好了呗~ 茶喝完了，宵夜也吃完了，眼睛越来越重，就让我在此搁笔，睡觉咯~　

明天又新的一个重复天～

Day 32 - Life with Maid.

Yes. I have officially survived life without maid for a month.
Should say that I have already got used to the fact that I no longer have another person in my house whose sole purpose of being there is just to get the house clean and so as to make me feel like I am the best spoilt brat in the entire Earth.

But I have indeed survived without her. For 32 days!! :D HURRAYYYYYYYY.

In this duration before my last post about maid, I got to learn to buy my own food.
This post should be an upgrade I should say. Through these days, I learn to cook my own food.

I don't know what I should say about my culinary skills. I seriously think the things that I learnt in F&N have just gone into the drain because my life have always been that good that I don't have to lay a finger to get food in my tummy. It's always just a call away. (Sounds like delivery, but that call is to my maid. HARIIIIIIII is what you will always hear when she's still around. :P Now that makes her sounds like she's dead. OKAY CAN.)

Since not having to lift a finger, having to cook again is just like cooking blindfolded which end up with lousy food that's always overcooked. -.- Hope I can find back that sense of culinary so that my food won't be that bad. Seriously, since the food that I am cooking nowadays are still can food as compared to how I am cooking in the past? Still a long long long way. HAHA.

Though to be honest, it looks quite nice from the picture. I am proud of that :D 

Magic of instagram, even shit looks nicer with all the filter :P 

Hmmmm, life is getting random everyday.

Day 10; Life without Maid

10 days without maid. 10 days already. Time seemed to fly past slow now, since I dread every part that I no longer have a maid at home to take care of the chores at home and I have to be the one doing the chore.

Then again, in an blink of an eye, it has been 10 days.

I guess it is pretty obvious that I dread the fact that I no longer am entitled to be in the spoilt brat category from the fact that I now use the duration of time I am without a maid. Having to learn life lessons and getting to think about things that seemed so much simpler in the past.

Today's no different. Having to fall sick on a weekend, and best, to be home alone sick.

Sure, being home alone is definitely awesome, the only part I love ever since my maid left. Peace and tranquility of being alone? BEST (Y).

But the part where having to take care of the house, do the household chores even though you're sick and almost dying just sucks big time and of course, from that statement above, yes. I did screw my day up just sleeping and of course messing up my house, not most of the housework and since I am too lazy to go buy food for myself, and end up cooking shit for myself.

BEST PART OF ALL THIS? I STILL HAVE TO FREAKING CLEAN UP. _|_

God, today's experience really made me think, if. I mean if. I really will to struggle through and make my way to Monash, will I even be able to take care of myself? I don't think so.

Hell man, I am learning something new, almost everyday without maid. Getting to know how lucky and spoilt I am all these years. Even though I well admitted it long time ago.

Really hope I recover soon. There's just too many things waiting for me to be done. Now's really not the time to collapse. OMG.

Day 7; Life without Maid.

Lesson learnt today? Please don't be lazy to be decently dressed, even if. You're just intending to go taobao some food DOWNSTAIRS.

Yes, especially if you're a spoilt brat like I am. *nods*

For all you know, all the stores downstairs aren't open or preparing to open and end up like me, walking around a mad auntie with auntie-ish pajamas and totally unkept hair walking the whole stretch of market with people looking at you like WHAT?! 

OKAY CAN. TOTALLY UNWANTED.

I mean seriously, not knowing your environment well enough will just lead you to this situation. I mean, really.
All the humiliation, just for a meal of breakfast. *sigh*

Even got physically "scanned" by the auntie when I went to get it.

But I guess, with my auntie-ish outfit, I passed without getting any asked for any identifications. :) 

OKAY CAN. *Roll eyes*

Day 6; Life without Maid.

(Yes, am finally able to post pictures in HD :) You don't know how happy I am.)

Life, without maid. Six days in a blink of an eye. 

I SURVIVED SIX FUCKING DAYS!! 

Got to finish work; RJ, quiz, evaluation early today. 

Usually, at those special days like this, I would be chilling out with my anime, novels or having an early bedtime, but guess what? 

I have yet to rest. Thanks to the evilness of housework.

The thing about housework isn't how much you need to do. Seriously.

It's the amount of times you need to do. 

All may be seemed done and completed today with big sense of self achievement, for all you know, process starts all over again. -.-

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Tsk. Give me a break.

I want my spoilt brat life back.

Then again. Maybe not. It's time for a change.

Day1 - Life without MAID.

Yes, the spoilt brat is once again faced with this dilemma. SURVIVING WITHOUT MAID. 

Somewhat, some shit happened somewhere, and I am stuck with this stupid shit. 

*sigh* is all I can do. 

Oh. Not forgetting. "Hello, household chores, we meet again." 

But wait. I am happy to say, I survived today, *WAIT FOR IT* 

I SURVIVED THE DAY, DOING MOST OF THE HOUSE'S HOUSEHOLD CHORES! 

YES, I DID. 

VACCUMING, MOPPING, WASHING TOILET, CLOTHES, EVEN COOKING. 

I FUCKING DID IT. 

Hence explains why I am still awake at this freaking hour, doing my report. :) 

I should be sleeping, but I am childishly, wasting my sleep boasting about my cheap prideful thrill. :{ 

GUSTA. ME LIKEA ~

PS: ONLY COMPLAIN. I AM NOT THAT FIT, AND I AM HAVING LACTIC ACID BUILD UP IN MY MUSCLES LIKE I JUST SWIM A MILLION MILES ACROSS THE SEA. 

ALTHOUGH I DO YOU, DEAR HOUSEHOLD CHORES, BUT SERIOUSLY. 

I HATE YOU. 

PS/S: I must be mad, the after troll of report writing :P

Rotten strawberry.

People often categorise the weak and people as strawberries.

Strawberry, although a pretty fruit. Is often need to be taken care frequently to ensure that they are away from all kinds of danger. For all you know the slightest touch will puncture them.

I have never found myself strong as compared to a lot of people I know and often admit that I am even spoilt to certain extent with maid and all that shit that most modern Singaporean kids are also fortunate to have.

However, I also never agreed that I was that weak to withstand the slightest touch of pressure, but judging and thinking back. I feel I am not even worth to be nicknamed as a strawberry.

If strawberries should represent the weak, I should be a super rotten strawberry.

For I am so rotten that I will even collapse with the slightest movement of air. For all that I have left is a hollow structure. Nothing else.

No dreams, no hope, not even encouragement that would make me all these is worth it.

I am tired of all these shit. Trying to look strong, trying to be happy, trying to make my parents proud. I am just tired.

I just am not cut for it.
My shitty results just explains it.
I am running out of steam, a steam that was made on the basis of nothing.

If only is the only thing I can ask myself. If only. I hadn't listened to you. If only I hadn't had that ego to make you proud. If only I decided to go with how I feel. If only...

Will everything be different? Will I be a happier person? Will I be better at doing what I loved? Will I?

Art is abstract is all I can use to console myself with hidden tears at night.

For I have already stuck in this commitment I have decided to give 3 years back.

重复。

重复的课，

重复的老师，

重复的朋友，

重复的人生。

上学可以让人扩大生活圈子，

可是往往也可以把生活圈子变的就是来来回回那几样。

生活，就是如此矛盾。

一生都在忙，忙上课，忙考试，忙毕业，忙工作。

囧囧囧。

美食。

美食。我们每天都需要的，美食。

它很多用途，可以用来庆祝美好的时光，也可以当成解压；化悲愤为食量，可以存催到只是填饱在咕噜咕噜叫的肚子罢了。

食物之所以能成为美食除了要靠厨师的功力，食材的好坏，其实也要看环境和情形的。

多多少少，和谁吃也有很大的关联。

我一直相信，只要是和爱你和你爱的人吃，就算是吃着在小贩中心，很普通的炒果条也会让我吃的津津有味，乐在其中。

反而，是和错的人吃，就算是山珍海味也会吃的很难过，很咽不下口。

就像今天，明明就在着有着美丽的夜景的海边，漂亮的船只，和不错的食物。加起来真的是气派无敌。

就可惜，是跟错的人。

多多少少，一点玩笑和幽默是会让整个用餐的气氛变的更佳，没错。

不过，玩笑玩过火了，只会变得幼稚，愚蠢，甚至让人愤怒。

我不知道我做了什么可以让你这样选择性的利用我当挡箭牌，

就因为我外表不佳，所以选择了我。

可是，不管我度量有多大，心胸多么的宽，我是有限度的。过火就是过火了。

不喊痛并不代表不痛，不爆发不是因为没脾气。

只不过，要为你留个面子。你固然老板。

对，你是老板。就不能有些老板的风范吗？
玩的连别人都受不了，何况是我的感受。
搞的我不知所错，你很爽是吧。

不过，受你一次侮辱，不会有下次。

学乖了，不会有以后。
就像老妈说的一样：“做工就做工，其他免谈”

毕竟，少你占你一些好处我不会死，

毕竟，你不是真正需要我。

我也不是真的需要你的钱。

这恐怕是我吃过一次最难吃的“美食” 了。

100 posts. Hoseybo!!

Pop some party poppers for me, everyone! 

100 POSTS!!

Not kind of a big deal actually, since I am not some big shots with ten thousands over page views and going to do a give away, needing some attention or something. To let people feel joyous for them as well for them. 

But I guess what makes me really want to highlight this stage of this blog is how much it has gone through already. Since, this blog has already been 1 and a 1/2 years old. (Ever since I have decided to move away from shame-island, kinda embarrassed at the way I used to blog and also sick that I have to use html just to make a new blog skin. Okay. Doesn't matter :x) 

It's kinda funny that how much I have come by  all these while. From me being in the middle of my year one, till now, whist I am in my final year. This blog has considered to have gone through the thick and thin through my poly years, I would not say that I have gone through as much as I had as compared to my secondary school years, but I won't consider that I had a more smooth-sailing time with this blog. 

Through this while, I have got new friends, lost old friends, be it I have got to see their true colours or be it if they have decided to move on without me. (it's part and parcel of life, just need some getting use like always) 

In this bunch, I have met very nice people, giving me encouragements, helping me grow, making me change into for the good or maybe for the bad. Through the year, I got new aspirations, new targets. I started doing new things that I have never will do in the past, the list just goes on and on; from working, to mopping even to me wanting FINALLY to lose some serious weight. All I can say is I'm glad at the very least, I can have something I can look back on. 

I am thankful despite my laziness, I am still leaving marks of my life time after time. 

For like what I have said, this blog isn't first made for anyone, but rather, or myself. To see how much I have grew and change as time passed. 

Y NO GLUE AT HOME???????

Something so simple, cheap and common. 

Y U NO APPEAR WHEN I NEED U????

Just when I need you the most at a time where I finally have mood to do my logbook!! 

(Though I am quite happy to say I have finally cleared almost all my PMS~) 

I am having this rash now to go popular and grab like a lot of glue to store at home. -.-

All I find is scotch tape, like 5?! WHY NEED SO MANY. SERIOUSLY?

KILL ME. NOW. 

An update about life.

Life's have been tiring ever since I have came back from Bangkok. 

PMS + diarrhea = awesome drainage on my energy bar.  

Even worked through the weekend, sales isn't as good on the first day. 

Some customers are so crappy that I really feel like punching them left and right.

Second day was alright, was less shagged due to a good night's sleep,there was more sales, but accidentally served someone else's customer, feeling guilty, but hopefully no hard feelings, that sale really helped me somehow. I am thankful.

Oh yeah, I FINALLY GOT TO WATCH MYSTIQUE VALLEY. LIKE FINALLY.
It's kinda awesome that I finally found a source to watch it.
IT'S DAMN AWESOME :) though the drama's long and I am busy. I will still make things while last. 'Cause she's too beautiful to be rejected. HEH.

*Gosh.* 

PS: And somehow, got to know that people are always watching me. Gotta be careful next time. *shrink eye stare* 

Another stage of life.

Yes, this toad has finally go on to the next stage of her life. HAVING A REAL JOB. 

Under a real boss, getting a real wage, facing the society.

It's really a different feeling altogether as compared to me working in my very own mother's fruit stall. 

(Or maybe, there isn't much to sales about there. OR MAYBE, there are just chairs that I can sit on.) 

But then again, there's this theory that no matter what, kids are always kids in parent's eyes, so you know, I don't need to do as much when I work with them BECAUSE I am a "little kid". 

Job's have been fine, people there are nice to me so far. (Hopefully, they find me nice too.) 

Hopefully, my sales are also good, to me. (HOPEFULLY, TO MY BOSS(ES) TOO.)

Pretty looking forward to the day I take my pay. Wonder how the feeling would be like. 

You know how people says about the legendary FIRST PAY. $$$$. 

Hmmmm. I think I better think about my studies first. I am still a student, with two UTs coming my way. 

GOOD LUCK TO MEEEEEEEE. OMG. 

GOD BLESS ME.

Did my nails~ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Finally and successfully did my nails. LIKE FINALLY. 

Have been wanting to do my nails up, but here and there, still didn't get to do it. 

Be it, due to the god-damn failure PP or simply due to me not being able to sustain my patience, ruining it before it dries. ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ

Wanted something bright yet, something new that I didn't try before, therefore, used the shatter that I bought not very long ago even though I know Mom didn't liked it very much. :x

Didn't succeed the first time when I wanted a hot pink base with it. It didn't shatter very well and ended up looking like some shit. (*￣m￣)

But who cares, was too bored watching drama, ended up doing my nails whilst watching it. 

I swear you will need a skill of a ninja if you want it to turn out really nice!!

It dries and cracks really fast, so if you want it to cracks nicely, you have to ensure that every stroke have to be thick and accurate, or else, bye bye~

*A bit like doing calligraphy, dip, stroke across canvas, dip, stroke, dip stroke...*

Okay, I am blabbering nonsense again. Shall stop now.

Really don't know what to blog nowadays, life's really repetitive; wake up, go to school, buy breakfast, eat, lessons, eat, end class, eat, go home, nap, do RJ, surf net, sleep. The cycle recycles itself. (;¬_¬)

So what else is there to blog? Nonsense. HAHA. 

So much for reading my nonsense!! (☆^ー^☆)

Failure in life.

Fail in doing well in school, fail in having a status, fail in chasing my dreams, fail in not trying to continue trying to chase my dreams, fail in protecting my friends, fail in being a good friend, fail for being not good enough, fail in letting others see that I am better than you think I am.

All in all, I am just a failure.

A failure that no one sees.

I seriously am losing more and more confidence in myself then never before.

Gosh, I need my life back.

人生哲学。

越是要坦白的澄清所有的所有。

越是表现你心虚的一边。

Sometimes nothing is all you have to say.