Changes.

Inevitably, as always. Change is everywhere.

Not that I am trying to highlight the point that I have always been the noble one and so.

But I just can't help but ask what's wrong with my life. I can confidently say, my life is no much different than yours, yours and yours. But why I am feeling so hollow in the inside.

In terms of friendship and all those relationship shit. Why am I always the one that's giving, I always feel that I am the one that's giving, but not having anything back in return. But for all my many many efforts to make something happen, I am still always the least prior one.

Be it it's because of you, you, you or YOU. I can't help but feel that surplus, and that I am not worthy of your time. Maybe it is me that is asking too much. Maybe it's me that's making a fuss out of nothing.

I am afraid that something in the past may happen again and I can once again feel that I am going back to those protective layers, afraid. Afraid that something beyond my control would happen again. God. WHY?

I'm tired of hidding and suppressing but then again, even if I were to show it out, who's gonna care.

Precisely my point. 

Maybe, just maybe, I should learn to be independent. 

Does it really matter?

Sometimes, words aren't said because they are not thought through about. 

Sometimes words are not said because of various reasons.

If words said won't change anything at all, then why say them? 

If words will make people unhappy. Why say them? 

If words cannot get things across, does it really matter if I say it?

Because towards the end, nothing will change. 

Because you will never believe in what I say. 

There are many things that I have never told you, just like how I believe you would never have told me.

In the end, all of us, just end up planting more and more seeds of assumption. 

With each of those seeds growing every time it happens, our misunderstanding increases. 

Assuming is the root of the problem. Just like every time I have thought that you know nuts about me, do I know the nuts about you? Assumption just got the better of us. 

I am no better than you.

太殘忍的話我直說 因為愛很重

你卻不想懂 只往反方向走

我们就是以为我们懂了，结果越走越远了。

Now that I have known your real reason, your piece of mind, should I do my last part as a friend to clear those seeds of assumption? Or should I just leave it there, since you do sound happier on your part if I just leave you alone. 

Thinking 'bout you, thinking 'bout me.

Open my eyes. It was only just a dream.

ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ

Today is a good day, shall use all the positive energy to focus on my studying!! :3 

I CAN DO IT!! :D

I will make the impossible, POSSIBLE.

It's really nice to have people that care about you around. Making you happy when you are down. :) 

Happiness.

Happiness can be so easily gotten, just give me ample time to get my good sleep, good food and good and simple times with my dear people who cares about me. 

But at the same time, what can be easily obtained is also easily destroyed.

Happiness, really is like thin ice.

Takes time to transform from water to solid, but just takes brief seconds to destroy.

I really hope that I would be able to get some true happiness back. 

Music didn't worked its magic really much last night, let's hope food do it's job later.

Reason why I am still "fluffy" till now. 

Sunken mood.

Tonight's not the night for happy post. You have been warned.

Tonight's seemed to become a bad night after all.

You said that you hate people coming to ruin you. Why are ruining me?

Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to get such treatments from you?

Just what am I to you? Stupid ego shit jerk.

Are status on the social websites so important?

认识你的这两年，我自认对你问心无愧。帮你的也不少。从来也没亏待过你。

可是，为什么要这样，为什么好像什么事都好像针对我？

我到底做了什么？让你可以这么的讨厌我？

如果你的目的是要彻彻底底的打败我，那我可以和你说，你成功了。你满意了吗？

Just freaking get out of my life, like how you said you would. Totally get out of my life.

Away to a place I won't sense you, won't see you and don't ever come back.

Just give me back my life. Give me back the old me.

Or maybe, just try to fix it and get. it. right.

But I doubt it will ever happen.

If only things were much simpler.

镜子之道。

在很多时候，人往往会投诉说为什么这个人会这样，这样，这样。

会那样，那样，那样。

不过，有没有回头想一想，看一看为什么会如此呢？

如果换成是自己，你会怎么做呢？

做的会比那个人还好吗？还是会和她做出相同的举止。

处理的方法有没有可能比她还要来得更糟糕。

我们人啊，就是太会抱怨了。有时，在抱怨的过程会忽略了很多。

伤害到的也可能很深，很深。

我常常把责任推在你身上，想一想难道我就没错吗？

可是，我该怎么去救，怎么去弥补？

"人生就想一片镜子，若要看见一个美丽的反映，自己也要对镜子先秀出灿烂的笑容。”

－张爵西

可是偏偏就是对你没有效。:／

PS: 不过，我还是相信只要真心对待，不管谁都会被打动。

人真的感觉的到谁是对谁好的。

I really thank the Gods and Angels up above that had sent you guys to me.

如果没有你们，我可能就没有那么大的福气了。

一份得来不易的友情。

希望越大，失望越大。越是强求，越是难实现。

可是，不可能的还是发生了。

真的是一份得来不易的友情。

:D

人。

瞥清了所有的虚假和面具的背后，我还是我。

我不是超人，我不会飞天吨地，我也不会飞檐走壁。

我就是我，一个贪生怕死，怕寂寞孤单，拿的起，放不下的无名小子。

我虽然表面上很坚强，不用你现在对我造成的伤害是你永远都弥补不回的。

就象一张有了污点的纸，就算用力的，使劲的想把它擦掉，痕迹依然存在。

因为你的所作所为，我们已经不可能回到原点了。

不管我有多努力，我对你的信任已经不会象以前一样的纯。

就算我自己有多想挽回这段友情，我还是过不了自己那关。

我不知道未来的路会是怎么样的。

不过，我希望不管最后的结局是什么，我都不要后悔。