Showing posts with label fail. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fail. Show all posts

Saturday, September 1, 2012

迷失。

一直以来,已经知道自己不是一个很会唱歌的人。
可是,也在朋友的认可,鼓励里,也开始不在否认这自己有些皮毛。
觉得,自己是会唱歌的。

听了自己以前的歌声,真的觉得自己是个大音痴。
也因为这样,记得了这些年一路走来,努力要把个唱好的经历。
想着,这一路,只有三个字。不简单。
什么都是自己慢慢的摸,慢慢的学。
可是人有几年呀?

渐渐的,把自己看成了个歌者的我,也找不到推动力了。
尤其看了中国好声音后,真的没力了。
努力了那么久也不就这样,没多好的样。
没有高亢的嗓子,没有熟练的技巧,没有个人的特色。什么也没有。


多不想放弃,一心想证明给那些贬低我的人,完成我的梦。
梦,梦都说是梦了。
没料儿,就是没料吧。
就像你说的,普通。Normal. 

咳。

只能说,每个歌者背后都有故事。

Monday, June 18, 2012

Judging.

Yes, this is going to be one of those ranting posts that I always have the tendency to post out, instead of those great, fantastic, entertaining posts that I planned in my head.

Today's topic : JUDGING.

Admit it, you, me, we all have been there. It's just human nature to judge. Oh. Not forgetting those biatches there to plan the seeds of misunderstanding into your brain before you know it, but then again, we are also that navie and stupid to fall for it. 

Judging is to me, just seems like another big irony. Something that all of us so detest, yet, always do. JUDGE. I judge you for who I don't know. You judge me back thinking you know me well. Cycle of life huh? 


Be it on me or on my friends that you're judging, you ain't know shit yet.
Just like how you think you know me, but you actually don't. You ain't know shit about me, that's a perception that I show you. 

Think I have no temper? Think again. Think I am always tired, powerless, think again. Think I am quiet/opinion-less? Think again? 


I don't know why this is happening to me, I am also judging you for all the wrong things like you are judging me and my friends. 

Maybe just like you, I know shit about you too. That's why I am judging. 

It's like a vicious cycle. Really feel like ending all these now, but can I? 

WTS. I fuckin' can't. This is frustrating that I still have to be that Ms Nice just to ensure that shit doesn't happen to me instead because of all the politics. I HATE POLITICS, be it literally, or just usually school and work politics. GTFO. 








Final note to self: 
Don't accept others to stop first. You stop it first. What they want to do with their little thought experiment is none of your business. 

Monday, August 29, 2011

Sunken mood.

Tonight's not the night for happy post. You have been warned.
Tonight's seemed to become a bad night after all.

You said that you hate people coming to ruin you. Why are ruining me?
Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to get such treatments from you?
Just what am I to you? Stupid ego shit jerk.

Are status on the social websites so important?

认识你的这两年,我自认对你问心无愧。帮你的也不少。从来也没亏待过你。
可是,为什么要这样,为什么好像什么事都好像针对我?
我到底做了什么?让你可以这么的讨厌我?

如果你的目的是要彻彻底底的打败我,那我可以和你说,你成功了。你满意了吗?

Just freaking get out of my life, like how you said you would. Totally get out of my life.
Away to a place I won't sense you, won't see you and don't ever come back.

Just give me back my life. Give me back the old me.














Or maybe, just try to fix it and get. it. right.
But I doubt it will ever happen.
If only things were much simpler.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Failure in life.

Fail in doing well in school, fail in having a status, fail in chasing my dreams, fail in not trying to continue trying to chase my dreams, fail in protecting my friends, fail in being a good friend, fail for being not good enough, fail in letting others see that I am better than you think I am.

All in all, I am just a failure.
A failure that no one sees.

I seriously am losing more and more confidence in myself then never before.
Gosh, I need my life back.