Judging.

Yes, this is going to be one of those ranting posts that I always have the tendency to post out, instead of those great, fantastic, entertaining posts that I planned in my head.

Today's topic : JUDGING.

Admit it, you, me, we all have been there. It's just human nature to judge. Oh. Not forgetting those biatches there to plan the seeds of misunderstanding into your brain before you know it, but then again, we are also that navie and stupid to fall for it. 

Judging is to me, just seems like another big irony. Something that all of us so detest, yet, always do. JUDGE. I judge you for who I don't know. You judge me back thinking you know me well. Cycle of life huh? 

Be it on me or on my friends that you're judging, you ain't know shit yet.

Just like how you think you know me, but you actually don't. You ain't know shit about me, that's a perception that I show you. 

Think I have no temper? Think again. Think I am always tired, powerless, think again. Think I am quiet/opinion-less? Think again? 

I don't know why this is happening to me, I am also judging you for all the wrong things like you are judging me and my friends. 

Maybe just like you, I know shit about you too. That's why I am judging. 

It's like a vicious cycle. Really feel like ending all these now, but can I? 

WTS. I fuckin' can't. This is frustrating that I still have to be that Ms Nice just to ensure that shit doesn't happen to me instead because of all the politics. I HATE POLITICS, be it literally, or just usually school and work politics. GTFO. 

Final note to self: 

Don't accept others to stop first. You stop it first. What they want to do with their little thought experiment is none of your business. 

Does it really matter?

Sometimes, words aren't said because they are not thought through about. 

Sometimes words are not said because of various reasons.

If words said won't change anything at all, then why say them? 

If words will make people unhappy. Why say them? 

If words cannot get things across, does it really matter if I say it?

Because towards the end, nothing will change. 

Because you will never believe in what I say. 

There are many things that I have never told you, just like how I believe you would never have told me.

In the end, all of us, just end up planting more and more seeds of assumption. 

With each of those seeds growing every time it happens, our misunderstanding increases. 

Assuming is the root of the problem. Just like every time I have thought that you know nuts about me, do I know the nuts about you? Assumption just got the better of us. 

I am no better than you.

太殘忍的話我直說 因為愛很重

你卻不想懂 只往反方向走

我们就是以为我们懂了，结果越走越远了。

Now that I have known your real reason, your piece of mind, should I do my last part as a friend to clear those seeds of assumption? Or should I just leave it there, since you do sound happier on your part if I just leave you alone. 

Sunken mood.

Tonight's not the night for happy post. You have been warned.

Tonight's seemed to become a bad night after all.

You said that you hate people coming to ruin you. Why are ruining me?

Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to get such treatments from you?

Just what am I to you? Stupid ego shit jerk.

Are status on the social websites so important?

认识你的这两年，我自认对你问心无愧。帮你的也不少。从来也没亏待过你。

可是，为什么要这样，为什么好像什么事都好像针对我？

我到底做了什么？让你可以这么的讨厌我？

如果你的目的是要彻彻底底的打败我，那我可以和你说，你成功了。你满意了吗？

Just freaking get out of my life, like how you said you would. Totally get out of my life.

Away to a place I won't sense you, won't see you and don't ever come back.

Just give me back my life. Give me back the old me.

Or maybe, just try to fix it and get. it. right.

But I doubt it will ever happen.

If only things were much simpler.

Failure in life.

Fail in doing well in school, fail in having a status, fail in chasing my dreams, fail in not trying to continue trying to chase my dreams, fail in protecting my friends, fail in being a good friend, fail for being not good enough, fail in letting others see that I am better than you think I am.

All in all, I am just a failure.

A failure that no one sees.

I seriously am losing more and more confidence in myself then never before.

Gosh, I need my life back.