Jailbreak or no jailbreak?

Right. So ever since I have been exposed to jailbreak. Learnt a bit here and there, I can proudly say, hey, I kinda like what I see after I jailbreak.

Free games, nice useful tweaks to make the iPod a better and more useful device. But hey. After having my iPhone 5 with me running so fast and everything just highlights even more and making me notice that; is my jailbreak making my iPod going slower?

Well, I don't know. Ever since I jailbroke, that's pretty much what I have experienced. Sadly, lagging and crashing becomes even more prominent especially with my iPhone 5 running as quickly as butter.

It is really tempting me to unjailbreak and move to the all new improved iOS 6. Since it is looking very cool on my iPhone. Looking all simple and nice, I just can't stand those notifications for me to update. Those stupid red numbers, increasing daily. All updating very much for the new iOS 6 which isn't much of a help to me since I'm still on iOS 5.1.1.

Jailbreaking is seriously a double headed dagger. I am still very much staying on it just because of the fact that I'm credit card-less, and that it is through jailbreak that I can get apps I want myself. Call me cheap stake if you want, but that's the only reason I can think of for me to stay on this very jailbreak.

Hence my move to clear almost everything else I don't need such as the other games, tweaks and such. All I can say is it's pathetic. But then again. I don't really care as long I get to play those I really like.

Jailbreak or not. I choose to stay to it now and hopefully a stable jailbreak for iOs 6 gonna come really soon and not choose to piss me off.

If the day comes where I should decide to give up my jailbreak. That would be the day where I would upgrade my iPod touch to the latest generation.

Trust me on this. The lack of jailbreak is the only reason I feel that now's not the time to buy anything from apple now other than the iPhone since that is the one and only device I will never jailbreak.

忙碌。

好几天美动电脑了吧？此刻打字的感觉好像也生疏了。
我真的是夸张王说夸张话。LOL.

只能说，表面上我一直渴望的假期也没有多么的完美。
坦白说，这几天看来，我忙的和上学没什么两样。
好像还似乎觉得上学时，可能因为有上课当借口，好像还没现在那么忙。

明明是假期，概嘛搞的的脚像是踩了一白棵柠檬似的，酸！！！

妈妈一看我闲着就叫我做东做西的。
老板一看我暑假来了就排了一堆的工作。

跑来跑去，忙来忙去，为了什么呀？ 真是无聊。

累，有谁不累，为了钱，只能说，没办法~

好了呗~ 茶喝完了，宵夜也吃完了，眼睛越来越重，就让我在此搁笔，睡觉咯~　

明天又新的一个重复天～

Day 32 - Life with Maid.

Yes. I have officially survived life without maid for a month.
Should say that I have already got used to the fact that I no longer have another person in my house whose sole purpose of being there is just to get the house clean and so as to make me feel like I am the best spoilt brat in the entire Earth.

But I have indeed survived without her. For 32 days!! :D HURRAYYYYYYYY.

In this duration before my last post about maid, I got to learn to buy my own food.
This post should be an upgrade I should say. Through these days, I learn to cook my own food.

I don't know what I should say about my culinary skills. I seriously think the things that I learnt in F&N have just gone into the drain because my life have always been that good that I don't have to lay a finger to get food in my tummy. It's always just a call away. (Sounds like delivery, but that call is to my maid. HARIIIIIIII is what you will always hear when she's still around. :P Now that makes her sounds like she's dead. OKAY CAN.)

Since not having to lift a finger, having to cook again is just like cooking blindfolded which end up with lousy food that's always overcooked. -.- Hope I can find back that sense of culinary so that my food won't be that bad. Seriously, since the food that I am cooking nowadays are still can food as compared to how I am cooking in the past? Still a long long long way. HAHA.

Though to be honest, it looks quite nice from the picture. I am proud of that :D 

Magic of instagram, even shit looks nicer with all the filter :P 

Hmmmm, life is getting random everyday.

Pet Peeves?

Do you have one? Having a need to face a wall just to study? Clean room, nice beds maybe? 

I have loads too. Just like mentioned on top. I need them all.
YES. I NEED TO FACE A WALL TO STUDY. FULLSTOP

BUT. I seriously admit I do have exceptionally major one for electronics.

Not clothes, not bags, not shoes, but electronics. 

Don't have a good earpiece? I whine. 

Scratching my new ipod case? I whine. 

Screen protector having scratch and bubbles? I whine. 

HAHA. Just what should I do with myself huh? 

Now it has aggregate to not standing good friends and people around me having good earpiece and case. 

TIME TO STOP. Hmmmmm. I know I have to. 

Kaythxbyes. 

So damn tired. People's bloody moodswing, social games, logbook and all these FYP shit's killing me. K. 

Goodnight. Zzzzzzzz.

Day 10; Life without Maid

10 days without maid. 10 days already. Time seemed to fly past slow now, since I dread every part that I no longer have a maid at home to take care of the chores at home and I have to be the one doing the chore.

Then again, in an blink of an eye, it has been 10 days.

I guess it is pretty obvious that I dread the fact that I no longer am entitled to be in the spoilt brat category from the fact that I now use the duration of time I am without a maid. Having to learn life lessons and getting to think about things that seemed so much simpler in the past.

Today's no different. Having to fall sick on a weekend, and best, to be home alone sick.

Sure, being home alone is definitely awesome, the only part I love ever since my maid left. Peace and tranquility of being alone? BEST (Y).

But the part where having to take care of the house, do the household chores even though you're sick and almost dying just sucks big time and of course, from that statement above, yes. I did screw my day up just sleeping and of course messing up my house, not most of the housework and since I am too lazy to go buy food for myself, and end up cooking shit for myself.

BEST PART OF ALL THIS? I STILL HAVE TO FREAKING CLEAN UP. _|_

God, today's experience really made me think, if. I mean if. I really will to struggle through and make my way to Monash, will I even be able to take care of myself? I don't think so.

Hell man, I am learning something new, almost everyday without maid. Getting to know how lucky and spoilt I am all these years. Even though I well admitted it long time ago.

Really hope I recover soon. There's just too many things waiting for me to be done. Now's really not the time to collapse. OMG.

Day 7; Life without Maid.

Lesson learnt today? Please don't be lazy to be decently dressed, even if. You're just intending to go taobao some food DOWNSTAIRS.

Yes, especially if you're a spoilt brat like I am. *nods*

For all you know, all the stores downstairs aren't open or preparing to open and end up like me, walking around a mad auntie with auntie-ish pajamas and totally unkept hair walking the whole stretch of market with people looking at you like WHAT?! 

OKAY CAN. TOTALLY UNWANTED.

I mean seriously, not knowing your environment well enough will just lead you to this situation. I mean, really.
All the humiliation, just for a meal of breakfast. *sigh*

Even got physically "scanned" by the auntie when I went to get it.

But I guess, with my auntie-ish outfit, I passed without getting any asked for any identifications. :) 

OKAY CAN. *Roll eyes*

The 20th.

So, I am 20 now. Righttttttttttttttttttttt.

As compared to 2011, 

(TIME MACHINE, POWER) 

Phew, it was hectic. 

This time round, things were a lot simpler, being a year 3 student often means more work, more work and more work, (not mentioning that THE FYP SUBMISSION DATE IS ON THE 13TH JULY) who actually gives a shit when they themselves are so freaking busy right? 

Even I don't give a shit, to be very honest. 

Furthermore not mention that 14th July 2012 fell on a Saturday. 

All the well, no school, no pressure. NO CELEBRATION :) 

Actually, it was really this pathetic, I am not kidding you. 

I even thought that I would just squander today away, home alone, with no maid(hence the need to do housework) and no date~ and spazzing over  boys over flowers with my stash of durain.

But I guess God's always fair to kind birthday people.

I got an impromptu date with HER. 

So, to spend my not so forever alone time :) 

Seriously, the day was not that spectacular to be honest, very much like every other time I have went out with her, but something about it today just makes me feel different. Maybe it's the birthday halo effect :/ Oh well. So be it. (AND VERY MUCH SHERMIN TRYING TO PAY ALMOST EVERYTHING FOR ME, even buying me the wireless mouth that I contemplated for so long!!)

And so, there goes how my 20th birthday took place. A day full of cheap thrills I should say :) 

I don't about these cheap thrills but something about it just makes me feel so happy. 

Going to ang mo kio just so that we can have KOI. 

Having to just walk around aimlessly in ntuc, sharing about life, and just going to walk at my favourite challenger to check out the lastest tech is all it takes to make simple happiness. 

OH.

Not forgetting these, 

Having to be in a totally kids environment squeezing and crouching just so we can draw on the table that we actually meant for kids. Love them to the bits even though they were free thanks to the opening of some shopping center at ang mo kio (who cares, there's still nothing inside anyway.) 

Made the first one just out of random thought, since I was really embarrassed of the fact that we are so overgrown in a bunch of bouncing, active kids. 

Became really oblivious to the environment when doing the second one, since the people are really nice there. HEHE.

LOVE THE MOTIVATION. HEHE. 

Really making them my birthday wishes. 

 加油~

It's really nice to be just spending time, doing usual things and being yourself. :)

That's how my 20th birthday. 20 years living life already. Fast. 

Thanks for everything. 

HAHA, I am back to the crazy random .gif style. :x 

一人流浪记。

其实也算不上什么流浪。

只不过，自己不知道是不是因为星座的关系觉得自己的粘人度高，而超不喜欢一个人出去，一个人吃饭，一个人看戏。

反正就是不喜欢一个人。

可是，相反的又觉得人嘛，总该学着独立点，坚强点。

是该学习，学习怎么独立，朋友也因该有自己私人的空间做自己想做的事。

成天粘着对方久了也会闷。

所以，就带着这个心态自己游荡了一个早上，自己吃早餐，自己逛接，逛书店。

其实，可能是因为已经知道是，自己私人的时间，没有别人，带上耳机，享受能够跟着自己的步伐，自己的调调。就算是迷路了，感觉也挺不错的。

一个人的清静，一个人的宁静，对我而言，新鲜而特别。

我不敢说我会爱上这种感觉，不过，有时间，我一定会在这样来个流浪记。

重复。

重复的课，

重复的老师，

重复的朋友，

重复的人生。

上学可以让人扩大生活圈子，

可是往往也可以把生活圈子变的就是来来回回那几样。

生活，就是如此矛盾。

一生都在忙，忙上课，忙考试，忙毕业，忙工作。

囧囧囧。

What can I handle?

Syllabus. Too much to handle.
Class. Too much to handle.

Coffee. Starting to handle.

Brain. Not able to handle all these too much to handle(s).

Wish that I stop all these by pulling a handle.

Going on an overdrive already.

Because of all these too much to handle things that seriously make me do stuff that I don't do in the past. Eg. Studying beforehand, studying outside so people can teach me.

Just this two points is sufficient to kill me. Leading to once again fall to the beloved grasp of caffeine.

God bless me. Hope they will always help and not build tolerance to it that fast.

Thankful that I have great and supportive parents that understand. Great that I have friends that care.

Thank you, because of you guys I am grateful.

Today's accidental studying session in Wendy's just prove everything.

I will and I must pull through this shit.

Short break, donut romance.

Holidays always seemed to end very fast for me. Busy life always never fails to let me enjoy these free time more.

Especially when I'm able to be alone. Just me, my music, my book and DONUT.

I guess that's the only reason why I got addicted to them so fast for breakfast.

A simple cup of hot drink paired with a Boston cream donut. Heaven. Peace and comfort all in one.

Great for the tired mind and soul. Have been over thinking too much I guess.

New phone case. :)

SO CUTE CAN? :D 

Awwwwwwww. :3

美食。

美食。我们每天都需要的，美食。

它很多用途，可以用来庆祝美好的时光，也可以当成解压；化悲愤为食量，可以存催到只是填饱在咕噜咕噜叫的肚子罢了。

食物之所以能成为美食除了要靠厨师的功力，食材的好坏，其实也要看环境和情形的。

多多少少，和谁吃也有很大的关联。

我一直相信，只要是和爱你和你爱的人吃，就算是吃着在小贩中心，很普通的炒果条也会让我吃的津津有味，乐在其中。

反而，是和错的人吃，就算是山珍海味也会吃的很难过，很咽不下口。

就像今天，明明就在着有着美丽的夜景的海边，漂亮的船只，和不错的食物。加起来真的是气派无敌。

就可惜，是跟错的人。

多多少少，一点玩笑和幽默是会让整个用餐的气氛变的更佳，没错。

不过，玩笑玩过火了，只会变得幼稚，愚蠢，甚至让人愤怒。

我不知道我做了什么可以让你这样选择性的利用我当挡箭牌，

就因为我外表不佳，所以选择了我。

可是，不管我度量有多大，心胸多么的宽，我是有限度的。过火就是过火了。

不喊痛并不代表不痛，不爆发不是因为没脾气。

只不过，要为你留个面子。你固然老板。

对，你是老板。就不能有些老板的风范吗？
玩的连别人都受不了，何况是我的感受。
搞的我不知所错，你很爽是吧。

不过，受你一次侮辱，不会有下次。

学乖了，不会有以后。
就像老妈说的一样：“做工就做工，其他免谈”

毕竟，少你占你一些好处我不会死，

毕竟，你不是真正需要我。

我也不是真的需要你的钱。

这恐怕是我吃过一次最难吃的“美食” 了。

First E.book.

Yes, like the title indicated, my very first e-book. 

Got the habit of reading again ever since I got my ipod, it is indeed a right choice that I have chose it over ipod classic. Since I never got the chance to finish any books since I read at the rate of a tortoise and the due date will always come before I can even finish the story. Too lazy to buy any physical copy unless of any special reasons. Even so, if I were to buy all the books I want to read, I think I would be broke by the time. 

Therefore, it's kinda awesome that ipod has this app that allows me to read my ebooks on it. 

It's seriously so convenient!! No hassle, just anytime, anywhere you like. Can have as much books as you like, no weight~ (just make sure that you have enough battery)

Though, I still prefer the feeling of reading a real book. JUST. DON'T WANT TO SPEND MONEY. T.T

AND. Very finally, I have got to finish a book that I have been dying to read ever since the movie came out that time. Have been stopping myself to watch the movie, afraid that it might be some kind of spoiler when I get to read the book. 

I wouldn't say the book is awesome or over the moon, but like every book, there's definitely one part that is a bit dry but if not there won't be any climax and such I guess. Overall loved the feelings author tried to bring out.  All very deep and emotional. 

Wondered if I would be that lucky to find that soulmate like Holly, and even if I did, would I have the privilege to be the selfish one and die first. :/ Thinking too much I guess. 

I don't even have a date :x #FOREVERALONE. 

PS: Let's see if I can sustain to carry on this reading habit and be good enough for myself to get a kindle touch :x TEEHEE. Thinking of the impossible again HAHA.

Moving on to my next book :D

转角。

你们喜欢转角吗？

有些人很爱，因为转角就好想一种新的开始，一个转换。

还是，像我一样讨厌，甚至害怕转角呢？害怕它会带来的转变，带来的挑战。

可是现在的我，就好像坐上了一台不能停下的车子，只能无奈的等到转角的来临。默默的担心，默默的带着恐惧面对这看来可怕的改变。

是该长大了。生活过太爽了，是该把皮绷紧了。

An update about life.

Life's have been tiring ever since I have came back from Bangkok. 

PMS + diarrhea = awesome drainage on my energy bar.  

Even worked through the weekend, sales isn't as good on the first day. 

Some customers are so crappy that I really feel like punching them left and right.

Second day was alright, was less shagged due to a good night's sleep,there was more sales, but accidentally served someone else's customer, feeling guilty, but hopefully no hard feelings, that sale really helped me somehow. I am thankful.

Oh yeah, I FINALLY GOT TO WATCH MYSTIQUE VALLEY. LIKE FINALLY.
It's kinda awesome that I finally found a source to watch it.
IT'S DAMN AWESOME :) though the drama's long and I am busy. I will still make things while last. 'Cause she's too beautiful to be rejected. HEH.

*Gosh.* 

PS: And somehow, got to know that people are always watching me. Gotta be careful next time. *shrink eye stare* 

Another stage of life.

Yes, this toad has finally go on to the next stage of her life. HAVING A REAL JOB. 

Under a real boss, getting a real wage, facing the society.

It's really a different feeling altogether as compared to me working in my very own mother's fruit stall. 

(Or maybe, there isn't much to sales about there. OR MAYBE, there are just chairs that I can sit on.) 

But then again, there's this theory that no matter what, kids are always kids in parent's eyes, so you know, I don't need to do as much when I work with them BECAUSE I am a "little kid". 

Job's have been fine, people there are nice to me so far. (Hopefully, they find me nice too.) 

Hopefully, my sales are also good, to me. (HOPEFULLY, TO MY BOSS(ES) TOO.)

Pretty looking forward to the day I take my pay. Wonder how the feeling would be like. 

You know how people says about the legendary FIRST PAY. $$$$. 

Hmmmm. I think I better think about my studies first. I am still a student, with two UTs coming my way. 

GOOD LUCK TO MEEEEEEEE. OMG. 

GOD BLESS ME.

Did my nails~ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Finally and successfully did my nails. LIKE FINALLY. 

Have been wanting to do my nails up, but here and there, still didn't get to do it. 

Be it, due to the god-damn failure PP or simply due to me not being able to sustain my patience, ruining it before it dries. ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ

Wanted something bright yet, something new that I didn't try before, therefore, used the shatter that I bought not very long ago even though I know Mom didn't liked it very much. :x

Didn't succeed the first time when I wanted a hot pink base with it. It didn't shatter very well and ended up looking like some shit. (*￣m￣)

But who cares, was too bored watching drama, ended up doing my nails whilst watching it. 

I swear you will need a skill of a ninja if you want it to turn out really nice!!

It dries and cracks really fast, so if you want it to cracks nicely, you have to ensure that every stroke have to be thick and accurate, or else, bye bye~

*A bit like doing calligraphy, dip, stroke across canvas, dip, stroke, dip stroke...*

Okay, I am blabbering nonsense again. Shall stop now.

Really don't know what to blog nowadays, life's really repetitive; wake up, go to school, buy breakfast, eat, lessons, eat, end class, eat, go home, nap, do RJ, surf net, sleep. The cycle recycles itself. (;¬_¬)

So what else is there to blog? Nonsense. HAHA. 

So much for reading my nonsense!! (☆^ー^☆)

Happiness.

Happiness can be so easily gotten, just give me ample time to get my good sleep, good food and good and simple times with my dear people who cares about me. 

But at the same time, what can be easily obtained is also easily destroyed.

Happiness, really is like thin ice.

Takes time to transform from water to solid, but just takes brief seconds to destroy.

I really hope that I would be able to get some true happiness back. 

Music didn't worked its magic really much last night, let's hope food do it's job later.

Reason why I am still "fluffy" till now. 

Rough patch. Pffftt.

As much as I want to move on with life and not whine like a spoiled Singaporean kid.

I seriously need a way to whine out all that I can. Not through keeping it any longer or talk it out with my dear ones. I have never seriously felt life to be so demoralising.

Having to be nagged and scolded every single day, having to be misunderstood by people you once cared about and worst of all, have no where to vent. Life never seemed to be so lifeless. Having to live normally seemed like a chore.

As much as I wished to cry it all out and sleep to my heart's content and wake up to that cheerful me, this all seems to be a luxurious privilege too good to be fulfilled.

For I could face much more, if I just heck cared about the world and lived in my own lalaland.

The only thing I can do is sallow everything back down and stayed strong.

I am really surprised how one could act under the change of situation.

I am really tired. How I wished that everything could just stop and return to normal.

Give me my life back. I am really tired. Really tired.

I am thankful for those who cared, and understood. I am sorry I can't reciprocate what you have done back. Sorry for being so stressed up and bullshity, deep down I have appreciate what you done, your efforts to cheer me up. Going that extra mile to understand the situation I am in.

Trying to make me happy through every means I can afford. If it wasn't for you guys, I think I would have collapsed.

Thanks for being that tinge of honey, when everything is bitter and sourish. Thank you.

Thankful for the creator of blogs, ranting out unconditional really works.

As much as I hope to stay at this state of tiny happiness, it's time I go back to reality.

Where life have to go on, Mom's still going to come back at the same time, my RJ's still gonna close its submission at 1159.