Fat oily rants.

Being fat was never really an issue to me, so what I'm fat. I'm still me. The problem about being fat is about having to not look good in anything but cheap and ordinary clothes. Anything other than that, forget about it ughh. For us, nothing is trendy, nothing is new it is not that we don't have fashion sense like those of you fashionista out there. It is that everything we wear will make us look like a big round ball. 

As much as I hated that part, being fat is also one of the reasons I'm always looked down upon. Why? Don't ask me. I never understood that part either. Being fat doesn't mean we don't have a mind, a heart or a soul. We too, like the pretty humans out there, have feelings too, so stop being all out there trying to damage our confidence when we don't even have much left in the beginning.

Today's incident just made me clearer to my lost goal. I was lost, but thanks to your one glance. 

I will prove it to all that once looked down to us. We are like you too. Being fat doesn't make us freaks. 

It is time. I hope I push it through this time.

加油吧，Shermaine. 你可以的。

语无伦次。

Spent a day doing nothing, wasted I should say.

To be honest, really had the feeling to go out and gym, it's really time to get back into shape, can already feel all the fats climbing back to my ass and tummy. Pants are all getting tighter, BUT then again, the haze's really making it a difficult mission impossible. 

You could call me a 天生贱骨头 maybe, always wanting to do the wrong things at the wrong time. 

Like feeling to practice a difficult song in the midst of a sore throat and cold, doing housework while having UT the next day waiting, and like to day, having the desire to run and lift weights in the midst of this horrible haze. HA, well. That's me. :D 

Welcome to my world. 

Maybe it could be the haze, that I wasted a day sleeping and watching videos, watching variety shows ranging from 康熙來了all the way to 百变大咖秀. Yup. I am that weird. However watching all that, made me started thinking. 

韵味，气质，这两样东西真的是一个人不可缺少的。

Seriously,  applicable to whether being yourself, or just simply how the world is trying to be anybody else but themselves. This two things are a MUST HAVE and thinking back, it is also this two things that made me fall for the artistes I once or still inspired. 

Sadly, just so sadly to say, I am still one common individual that has still haven't found mine. 

Sadly to say, I think it's hidden in that layer of fats in me. To be honest, I never thought that being fat is something to be sad about in the past, but as I grow older, being fat is seriously a disadvantage. 

Being fat, you walk slower than people, you don't look good in ANYTHING, some people think that you're just dumb and worthless. WELL. It's my fault anyway that I become fat. :/

YUP. Pretty self- explained.

Hi y'all.

Seemed really long since I have made a decent post about anything huh? 

Life have been hectic ever since I have last genuinely updated in like April? O.O Didnt knew what had gotten into me, but just didn't had the mood to got to update even though there was really a considerable amount of things to update. 

For one major one was going and coming back from a school trip to china, two regarding my graduation, three that I will be going to be twenty-one pretty soon and that I will be holding my second ever party in my life; first being the one when I had when I was one :p and four, stepping into a new stage of life where I will be recieving education from a private institute. 

Seemed like pretty much going on huh?

Yeah, I think so too. Maybe that's the reason why I am not feeling the mood to write anything. 

Nah. That's not true. 

I'm just most of the time busy and moody over things. Well, a lot of things. Too much that I don't know where to begin anymore. :/ 

Well, blame no one since I am not good in anything to begin with. 

Not good in doing sales, handling stress, studying and the things I love. Just not good in doing anything in general. 

Hmmm. 

Life. 

Where are things always greener on the other side? 

And here comes my mood swing again, making my mind go viral again about how unfair life is. 

Till then. Bye. 

It's on!!

Seriously hope that it would turn out fine. :|

我。。。

终于，毕业了。

这三年的酸甜苦辣，

这三年来建立的友情和感情，

这三年所得到的教导，

我应该会铭记一生。

谢谢每个让我在这三年的每个人。

Cleared.

The feeling of having back my desk from the horrendous messy demon is seriously beyond words can describe. Heh.

So awesome that it should be recorded down. Lol.

But seriously...

It has been long since I have sat at it to get serious work done cause from all that I can remember was that since the start of UT2, mess has been piling up and all I could do was move to another venue or space just so I could do my work.

Laziness is the key.

But... Since all was over. It's time...

NO MORE EXCUSE FOR MESS!!! ・ﾟ・(｡>Д<｡)・ﾟ・



So hello, my desk. Good to meet you again! ヾ(*´▽｀*)ﾉ

脑的主题乐园。

夜里，每次静下来时，总是喜欢听听下音乐让自己有一些对自己诚实的时候。

每一晚，想的主题都会不一样。
前阵子想的不是考试就是大学，真的是烦死了。现在总算尘埃落定，算是做了个决定。虽让不是心里知道不是最好的选择，不过，已经是对大家最好的决定。不知道后来的路会怎么样。

今晚的感觉很怪，好像鸡尾酒；包围着很多的成分。

有快乐的，也有想念的。
开心的就是终于盼到了好友大老远来啦，虽然之前没来的时候，真的想了很多在一起的时候会要做点什么，可是来的时候却也没做什么，只是谈谈。说了真的也没有很好意思。不过，一起时，感觉真的还真不错。

想念的呢，就算了吧。
也不知道再留念着什么，可能是天时地理人和的关系，冲昏了头。

可是到现在我还是对你抱着感谢，感谢因你而发现的这份友情。