不见。

不见东西，有了领悟。
但也很心痛。

好想哭，可是也没用。
怪只怪我粗心。😔😭

What do you listen to?

Music.
A very powerful word.
A very big part of my life.

Everyone agrees the same that the world will never be the same without it.

Some like me, will agree that you can't live without it. Yup, not even one day.

But just not everyone will agree on what's good music.

It's just like how people buying the same top from the same shop can end up buying very different sizes, even color.

I'm a kid who appreciates weird music that most people her age won't. I really don't mind it for as long as I had remember. It might be the tiredness tonight, but tonight. I do mind the fact that I'm different.

I don't know why. Tonight my definition of unique becomes weird, but here am I still listening to my weird music because it still soothes me the way I like it. 😌

Heading to bed with a heavy heart, a slight headache and just a very tired me.

A long deserved getaway.

Nothing better describes my feelings.
Super shiok please, finally getting to another place, away from all the politics and social games. Not forgetting school and all the work waiting for me.

Woohoo, bunched with a chain of random mambo jumbo nonsensical dancing is all I am feeling. 😊

Let's just hope I get the best out of this trip, see the people we wish to meet and come back safety and happily. 😁

Oh, not forgetting. Happy Chinese New Year to whoever that's reading this. May you and my year prosper well like no one's business.

HUAT AH!!

No big deal.

No big deal. It's just my final year presentation tmrw.
I'm still here trying to script my presentation in the middle of the night with everyone deep in their sleeps.

No big deal. Sure. I will be fine.
I just haven't really ironed my formal wear I need for tmrw morning, and now it's like what? 5.29 a.m. in the morning already. Great.

SURE'S THERE'S NO BIG DEAL IN THE VERY BIG DEAL.

I am screwed man. I don't even know which is better to wear. HELP.
*No one's really awake now though :|*

Screw this. Thank you very much for reading.
I am a hopeless kid that do all the wrong things at the wrong time.

Thank you brain for losing the function to prioritize.

Yes, I am blaming everything but myself.

I really hope I get through this. SAFELY. *Prays*

Life without maid; the neverending edition.

I know from a long hiatus from the blog writing, a good and cheery post would do all good, but sadly, tonight is not the night.

Ever since maid had left the family, I can gladly say that there's a huge change in how life is, how the true colour of things slowly shows and little and insignificant can we be. 

Don't tell me love and kinship all through all odds bullshit, 'cause all I am sensing now is tension. 

I hate how the culture of the family have changed ever since the maid left. 

I hate how now's all about tension, stress and restrictions in the family. 

I hate coming home to an empty and messy house everyday, tensed as ever knowing that at any time I would be yelled at for doing things that seemed to be so insignificant in the past. 

I hate you for being so unreasonable of small things because you are tired, and you just want to vent everything out. 

I hate it when I become your venting outlet and every form of harsh words comes right out from your fucking mouth like blades to my soul. 

I hate the tension we now have between us. 

I hate that feeling that I don't even feel like talking to you. 

I hate how I can't even feel relaxed in my own home. 

I hate how I have lost the whole feeling of truly slacking and relaxed at home. 

I hate how now I feel that even going out doing nothing is better than staying at home.

I hate how I feel like I don't want to ever be in this place. 

I hate how I feel so immature due to all this tension and shit going through. 

I hate the everything and anything that have changed when the moment my maid left home. 

I want my life back.  

But, I know it's impossible. Fuck. 

Crap.

Here I'm with a half asleep mind, creating this post, pissed with my laptop giving me problems. Seriously, I would appreciate if people and things around me would stop breathing down my neck.

If only... That is.

If only that happened I won't be sitting down in front of my laptop waiting and photoshopping while many others are already in the comforts of slumberland.

I...Am...Sleepy.......

Jailbreak or no jailbreak?

Right. So ever since I have been exposed to jailbreak. Learnt a bit here and there, I can proudly say, hey, I kinda like what I see after I jailbreak.

Free games, nice useful tweaks to make the iPod a better and more useful device. But hey. After having my iPhone 5 with me running so fast and everything just highlights even more and making me notice that; is my jailbreak making my iPod going slower?

Well, I don't know. Ever since I jailbroke, that's pretty much what I have experienced. Sadly, lagging and crashing becomes even more prominent especially with my iPhone 5 running as quickly as butter.

It is really tempting me to unjailbreak and move to the all new improved iOS 6. Since it is looking very cool on my iPhone. Looking all simple and nice, I just can't stand those notifications for me to update. Those stupid red numbers, increasing daily. All updating very much for the new iOS 6 which isn't much of a help to me since I'm still on iOS 5.1.1.

Jailbreaking is seriously a double headed dagger. I am still very much staying on it just because of the fact that I'm credit card-less, and that it is through jailbreak that I can get apps I want myself. Call me cheap stake if you want, but that's the only reason I can think of for me to stay on this very jailbreak.

Hence my move to clear almost everything else I don't need such as the other games, tweaks and such. All I can say is it's pathetic. But then again. I don't really care as long I get to play those I really like.

Jailbreak or not. I choose to stay to it now and hopefully a stable jailbreak for iOs 6 gonna come really soon and not choose to piss me off.

If the day comes where I should decide to give up my jailbreak. That would be the day where I would upgrade my iPod touch to the latest generation.

Trust me on this. The lack of jailbreak is the only reason I feel that now's not the time to buy anything from apple now other than the iPhone since that is the one and only device I will never jailbreak.