Jailbreak or no jailbreak?

Right. So ever since I have been exposed to jailbreak. Learnt a bit here and there, I can proudly say, hey, I kinda like what I see after I jailbreak.

Free games, nice useful tweaks to make the iPod a better and more useful device. But hey. After having my iPhone 5 with me running so fast and everything just highlights even more and making me notice that; is my jailbreak making my iPod going slower?

Well, I don't know. Ever since I jailbroke, that's pretty much what I have experienced. Sadly, lagging and crashing becomes even more prominent especially with my iPhone 5 running as quickly as butter.

It is really tempting me to unjailbreak and move to the all new improved iOS 6. Since it is looking very cool on my iPhone. Looking all simple and nice, I just can't stand those notifications for me to update. Those stupid red numbers, increasing daily. All updating very much for the new iOS 6 which isn't much of a help to me since I'm still on iOS 5.1.1.

Jailbreaking is seriously a double headed dagger. I am still very much staying on it just because of the fact that I'm credit card-less, and that it is through jailbreak that I can get apps I want myself. Call me cheap stake if you want, but that's the only reason I can think of for me to stay on this very jailbreak.

Hence my move to clear almost everything else I don't need such as the other games, tweaks and such. All I can say is it's pathetic. But then again. I don't really care as long I get to play those I really like.

Jailbreak or not. I choose to stay to it now and hopefully a stable jailbreak for iOs 6 gonna come really soon and not choose to piss me off.

If the day comes where I should decide to give up my jailbreak. That would be the day where I would upgrade my iPod touch to the latest generation.

Trust me on this. The lack of jailbreak is the only reason I feel that now's not the time to buy anything from apple now other than the iPhone since that is the one and only device I will never jailbreak.

Small update about life.

Going to do a little update through my phone like some big shots whose blog has thousand of readers. Yes, it matters. Haha. I'm joking. Who really reads my blog? True readers can be easily count with simply one hand, but who cares?

Haven't been blogging all these while, not going to use "busy" as an excuse. Since the long deepavali weekend has just ended two days before. It is not an excuse not to write.

Sure there are a few new updates about my life, school officially started, I got a new pair of earphones. Expensive earphones. Not forgetting a new phone that I am now using to create this post while standing zombie like like any other fellow Singaporean that is now on the train now going to work or school.

There are a few more things I have got that can be considered new.

However, other than showing these brand new addition to tech collection, I'm not sure if any other part of my life is new and refreshing anymore.

Other than those emo reflection thoughts I always tend to have when I'm just on my bed chilling while trying to fall asleep. I have nothing else to share. Not forgetting the attempts of trying to stare at the screen of the create blog post page trying to make a short life update post since it has been long that my blog has any non-emotional post.

-.- Okay, excluding the previous one which was only about cakes when I was too bored in class tumblr-ing about.

Okay then, blabbering of nonsense should end right very now, since it's at the woodlands stop already and l think I lost the focus of the post with my half woken mind.

Goodbye and so long, my dear readers. Goodbye and so long, little dear blog.

Hungry, hungry.

Bored and hungry in class. I'm on the verge of going mad. 

In way, I can be said to be courting trouble, yet. I just can't seemed to give a damn now, simply because I'm such god damn hungry. GOSH. 

Dieting don't seemed like a good idea anymore, being hungry, I feel like I can eat the amount of two again. THIS IS NOT GOOD. ;A; WHEN I ONLY HAVE A 1200 KCAL to keep to. 

Just look at all the good food. :( 

*Mental screams!!!* Just want to sink my teeth into it. GOSH. 

But sadly, nope, I can't. I can't eventhink that I will end up with some healthier shit just so I will keep to my diet. I SHALL NOT GIVE UP. *Although I am already wavering on the first day. :(((((((( ) 

Okay, I shall really stop spazzing at food. it's seriously making things worst. 

Healthy or not, I NEED FOOD. I AM HUNGRY. 

ME HUNGRY, ME GRUMPY. 

爱自由，怕孤独的巨蟹座。

好久没写篇了，我那些经常看我部落的人也因该被闷的全跑了。

最近也没概什么，也不就忙上学，忙上课，忙着帮朋友们办生日，忙着看看自己将来能上什么大学这类的事。

最近真的为了很多事在忙，脑袋瓜都快暴了。

可能是开始觉得这世界也没什么美好可言了吧，人的人心显恶，学校里的人际游戏，我真的很累了，累的阵阵开始相信了一位朋友的经典句子。

"Believe me, alone never die." 一个人有时真的比起和你一些会让你感到孤单的人。

可能是付出的累了，不管多努力也得不到相同的回报，也可能只是害怕有一天会在遭到伤害，慢慢的，对好的朋友，拉远了距离。对新的朋友也封紧了心。毕竟付出了那么多年，受到的伤害也够了。谁对我好，我知道，也心领。拉远了距离也是因为珍惜，害怕着彼此会产生厌倦，总害怕着失去。

但是矛盾的是，虽然想要铁了心，还是默默的付出着，仍然的渴望着，仍然等待着，等待有一天肯为我付出的人，关心我的人。

好吧，想了想，那好像也超过了朋友的界限，肯定是偶像连续剧看多了，受了正在听着的情歌影响了大脑，脑子不清了，胡思乱想。

*Sigh* 难过，没安全感的时候，也真想抱着坚固的身怀大哭一场。

好啦，好啦，我这个不知好歹的巨蟹座也应该去睡了。

Class roster.

So holidays are ending very very soon, having to just worked most of the holiday through, I should say, I didn't really got much out of it, so much of which, most of the things I learnt, see and felt all came from work.

Well, at least the pay was okay. Money is the root to all evil. Hiak hiak. (Self consoling in progress)

Finally having to see my class roster, clearing most of the mist of how my next semester would be taking shape into, I should say I am both glad, but yet, afraid again.

Glad, that I at the very least got the blessing of the Gods above that I didn't have to be in the same class of Dark claws of smart of wits, but ended up with another class, which seemingly, seems to be less dangerous, but yet, seemed to be very deceiving to me, especially with the case that I will be stucked a lot with a group of people I really just hope to be got over and done with. Gosh. Just save me.

I am not one that always pray. I am not the kind of person you would call Holy.

But please, Gods from the above skies, bless me with the power and energy to survive next semester, and let's hope not to get as socially politically involved, keeping all these shit to the bare minimum.

An act of kindness.

Maybe it's the fact that I commute more on the train more during the holidays due to work or I'm just simply bored when I'm on the way to work, totally late and in no mood to watch or play any games on my iPod.

I find myself more attentive to the ads on these platforms more often now.

Recently one that got me thinking was the one regarding the act of kindness.

I never really took it into heart even though the emphasis of the ad was to highlight that acts of kindness could be done in seconds in our busy schedules and busy was not an issue. But you know being in a society like Singapore who gives a shit. I mean seriously. I don't think half of the population even appreciates what you are doing. More over making Singapore a better place just by these act of kindness that many take for granted.

Affirmative from experiences. *nods*

But having to experience it myself. Acts of kindness do make a difference. You might just meet some one who will appreciate your efforts. Like me.

A accidental topple of my long awaited fries sure spoilt my day.

But an act by the manager to replace my fries sure made my day a whole lot better. Appreciating the fact that the manager didn't have to do it as it is none of macs fault that my fries got toppled on the floor.

I am deeply touched.

Suddenly motivated that I should be gracious in my own way or another.

更新。

其实，今天也没有什么想要更新什么有趣的新梗。
不过，望一望，想一想，心里就觉得好像很久更新了的感觉，就变的特别想更新。　

最近也没算在忙着什么，就在打工着吧。
也算很以前不一样吧，打工也算一种时间上的寄托吧。
比闲着没事做好的多。至少，我每天还算过的充实。

人，虽然忙的时候嘴巴总是会唠叨，可是，我开始觉得，至少忙是比闲着好很多。

不知不觉，最近有开始查觉到自己好像又变了很多似的。

开始有了很多感想，很多以前没想过的。

就像朋友这回事，工作这回事，人氏关系这回事。

可能是成长了，思想又变了，我真的觉的，我自己都不认识在改变着的自己。

变化，有事真的很恐怖。



变化，就像一个可怕的旋风，一来的时候，一瞬间就可以把真实的那个你一起圈走。