Cheap thrills of the day. :)

HEH. Finally got a day off work due to school, that kind of happiness is describable by no amount of words. :3  Mark my words. I am a spoilt brat you know.

Today can be said one of the best/ relaxing days I had during my holidays mentally.  Basically did nothing much at all, just walked around buying food, lazing around, drinking, eating, drinking, drinking, eating, go home. HAHA!!

If branding is nothing to you, you have got to try this shit.
Nicer than koi in my opinion!!
Not gong cha though, gong cha is another league altogether. Hehe. 

Muji drink, never fails to make me feel healthy, LOL.
Just joking, but never fails to give me this refreshing feel. 

(Y) Shiok, shiok mee sua~
MEATBALLS :D 

Well, I am a foodie destresser, what to do? :P 

*There goes my diet :3* 

It's kinda nice though that a trip to trying out earpiece and getting ipod cases turned to food trying and crap buying. Since I have decided to stick to klipsch, nothing beats it in my opinion so far, we will see how. :D

HEHE, $$$$ saving plan!! :) I feel richer already~ LAHLAHLAH. 

垃圾感想。

不知不觉，就像林俊杰说的："很久没有看见歌米的，他们一个，一个的也慢慢长大了，很多都改变了很多。”

慢慢的，我也长大了。不知不觉也支持了他有最少五年了。

可能是长大了，思想变了。 虽然他还是很帅，歌声很动听得会让我感动。可是这次的感觉就是不一样。

反倒觉得他很可怜，没有一般人可以拥有的自由，不能像一般人谈一场普普通通的恋爱。
说是有很多想我和你这样发明星梦的小孩，想他一样有自己的舞台，表达自己给全世界。其实，又是我倒觉的如果他能倒回时间，他也很想和我们一样，有着很普通的自由，能恋爱的自由。能正常和父母吃简单的午餐，能在没有压力之下谈谈一场恋爱，总而言之，就想做什么就做什么。

人生短暂，能有自己的舞台，可是没有能恋爱的自由，那又有多好呢？

他也是人，也会像我和你一样拥有一样的渴望，欲望。

我。只能以一种很矛盾的角度去看待这些。 因为，我不否认我有发明星梦。

Adapting.

I seriously am a geeky cave woman that know nuts about the world. All I know is my music, my drama and rotting at home all day long.

Spoilt brat much.

Takes me great effort to let me adapt and get into the mood of things. Just like work. It took me great effort to get into the hang of things.

Changed me to another location. A totally "new" place, a new style, I get all lost and blur.

Even had to call a friend up to ask for directions. How geek/ no life can I get, being a 19 years old singaporean getting lost in singapore... Utterly hopeless.

Ahh, but learning is all part of life. At the very least I am already learning now to a better tomorrow.

Goodnight. Tomorrow would be a long day for me. Better catch some sleep now.

虎头蛇尾

Best word to describe my day.

To be honest, my day did begin in a good way, with good combo-ing sales and good customers giving me a chance to really wanted to smile to every customer that was coming my way.

But somehow, the day just got worst in one way or another. It begin with the first one that I really, didn't make it into the competition. Not that I didn't expect that, in fact, I have never passed any auditions in my life, I was like that bad. I know. No matter how many people out there told me I was good. I never really take it in heart, though some made me happy. But it was never a true believe when they said it.

C'mon, I knew where I was. 自己有几两重，自己难道不知道吗？

But it was just this part of my ego that really wanted to prove to my dad. I was good. I will make it through with what I love to do and one day, be good and worth his opinion in what I love to do. But then again, who am I to judge? He was right again. Again and again. Maybe I really am not made for singing, God is just making a joke out of me. Making me fall in love with all the things I am not good at. Making me fall in love with the things I am not supposed to do. But what can I do then?

Then again, ever since, it's like I am not myself anymore. Sales started to slow down, no. It stopped. Can't seemed to get any customers, or at least, I didn't get enough to help me hit the basic requirement from boss. Once again, making me feel worthless.

Plus the combo of breaking that plastic display box when trying to put in place a camera that had toppled, I really felt I was most worthless jerk.

T.T that's what happen to me in the end. Worthless crybaby.

Start of my slacking life :)

Well. Maybe not in that sense.
I finally got my well deserved holiday. The holidays have been awesomely great. Class outing. Chalets. Outings.

Endless fun is all that meets the eye!! :D

But then again. It's not that slacking as it seems to be since I will be working and there's FYP to worry about.

Ahhhhh.... Spoiler to all the fun.

Then again if without them. All the fun would be meaningless.

And yes. It is awesome to be an iPod touch user. All the ebooks I can read!! Even this very blog post you're reading is thanks gladly to this small device.

Best word to describe me.

Sometimes, I think the real reason why I become like that is because of the way you mold me to be. 

Sometimes, I ask myself, what am I? A puppet? 

Doing things as you like, as much as I have tried to go into a path that you wanted, there's still things that you pick on. As much as I want to prove that there's more that meets the eye, the more you try to push it down. 

I agree that you do live longer than me, eat more salt in comparative to the amount of rice I take. 

Have more experience in life than me, see more than me. But what cannot be bought by money, can never be bought by money, and you obviously, do not understand. 

You never seemed to understand what I mean. 

You have what you think it's good for me. You always think that that's the best for me, but do you think that's what I want in life. 

I really don't understand why do you have to always be like that, life isn't all about the money. Although yes I agree that there's alot of things you can't do without money, but then again. If money is all you think about for me, then why live a life. Just kill yourself. Because there's nothing inside you anymore. NOTHING and thanks to that mind of yours, nothing I want to do is correct, nothing I do is worth it. 

I ain't made to be a singer, I ain't made to be a editor, I ain't made to be a director.

Guess what, I don't think  I am made to become a doctor too. 

FUCK IT. But do I have a choice. No, after __th posts about my life controlled by you. 

There's nothing I can do. 

I am still stuck in my own tiny useless biomedical course, not doing the things I like. 

Though on a side note, you do close an eye on me, thankfully, or else I think I will just kill myself. 

PS: If you could just change the way you talk, maybe I will be less pissed. 

Maybe.

; Maybe I should stop learning to care so much about people around me. 

Maybe less things would happen as things are always better when leave untouched. 

船到桥头自然直。虽然是懦弱，逃避的想法。

不过，逃避至少可以避免弄巧反拙的几率。