True colours.

Everyone wants to know everyone's true colours.

But just no one wants to really accept it when they see it.

So what's the point of showing when?

Truth is always vulnerable, reality is cruel.

Protect your mask well.

Proud Girl (Y)

Yeps, although this can be a very simple question for a lot of you AMaths pro out there.

But having to solve this question is indeed a glory for me!

Because alpha beta and all that shit was once one of those questions I tend to avoid during O levels' :D

Solving this makes my night feel AWESOME :D

No more EMO THOUGHTS :D

*Emo thoughts include: Submitted but approval pending PP, undone IG information banner, I have no talent in singing, having UTs to study for, etc...

*Fuck this shit and continues to take the yellow piece of paper and jump around!*

;D

I should stop scaring myself, and freaking go to bed.

Staring more and more into the screen would only,

make me feel that I am a lazy pig and freak out. LOL. *palm slap*

Don't want to be dozing off the screen at class tmrw. Especially when it's biochem tmrw.

I am bored,

But I should really start studying. If I don't want to flunk my UT.

An update about life.

Been so damn long since I have written a blog post.

Been busy, lazy, tired and all those things that had prevented me from blogging a decent post. Well, maybe one I think is worth posting.

Who ask life to be just a recorder huh?

Life had been pretty good for me and many things had been going around me, but I just never had the time to really blog everything down, not going to put everything down, just a few main points.

1. I am no longer a freshie.

Yeps, I have been promoted to a year2, and I must say, although a lot of things have been a lot slacker like the way we present and things. Things weren't considered very bright as considered to last sems class. People are friendly. But just don't feel bonded to them. Maybe it's just not time yet?

But one things from sure. It has been 5weeks or so, prepare for more change to come and best of all, UT running at full speed ahead at me. Good luck man. I can do it. Yes I can! *looks away guiltily*

1. I lost/got pick pocketed off my poddy.

Yes, I hundred percent did and it hurt alot. Having to lose something so precious, something I use everyday without fail, no matter where I am I, when I am bored, down or even happy. Awake or sometimes asleep. *Yes, I do sleep with my ipod and headsets.*

Having to lose it, just sucks big time.

*And I have learnt that handphones are not good replacements for it. Just can't stand my music stopping every single time I get a message or call. Just a disruption, especially when you're having your emo moments.*

It has been like two weeks or so, since I have last seen it. Don't know where is it, don't know who is it with, don't know how is it doing. *Okay, heartache feeling kicking in again :(*

But whatever is it, whoever is it with, I wish my poddy all the best, and may the person who might be enjoying it to use my poddy with care like I did to it and treat it well.

You have indeed served me well. May you find a good owner.

Under Shermaine's care,

8th May 2010 - 10th May 2011.

3. Got a replacement!

Well, yes, so much for sad moments! Mom had taken pity on me! :D

Really got to get another replacement. But not ipod lah. Which is kinda sad because I didn't like the 6th generation nano and the touch is simply too high to ask for since it was still my fault that Mom had to get me a replacement.

Got this sony baby!

Looking on the bright side, it seems to be so much better than the nano now that I am using it already. Although not as cool as the nano with touch-sensitive click wheel and that damn ass camera at the back.

*Plus the fact that I am already damn spoilt for using the ipod too long that I have lost the sense to use those regular ones.* It has every childish thing I can ever want for! HAHA!

1. Good sound quality! :D - Big YES! For such an audiophile I can be at times.

2. Have this noise-cancelling thing on the machine itself, but only usable with earpiece given. Nonsense but !!!!!ly good thing to have! :D

3. Can change background! Now I will never be bored of the interface! :D

4. LARGER MEMORY! (16GB) MORE SONGS, MORE DRAMA! :D

So looking on the bright side, though I lost a nano, I gained back much more! :)

At least its something so much better than my handphone, something that I now hate to use as a audio device :)

NO MORE EMO POST ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

And so, I am back, blog's have been really dead this holiday. Very boring too.

But don't blame me, there's no mood for me to blog :P

I finally understood the Sand's theory in having your life back in reality is better than having it online. It's kinda true when that instant, life's only you and your friends.

The feeling's just great. You being in your very own comfort zone, without any stress/pressure. Being able to do what I like, what I am passionate about.

Not like how I am in school, a living dead zombie.

The feeling of being in my own lalaland?

AWESOMESHITX TO THE MAX.

Reality? All good things come to an end. School's gonna start.

All the endless RJs, all the endless nightmares. Gosh.

Okay, NO MORE EMO THOUGHT \M/!

I'm just that zombie.

I don't know why I would break down today. At this moment.

Maybe my inner self is surpressing all this a little too long and a little too hard.

And maybe I just don't want my sister to go through the same path as I did.

Even though it will be a little unfair for me then.

能救一个是一个。

Maybe, also, I am just sick and tired of being a zombie, going to school everyday without a fucking aim. Just going to school, for the grades, for the expectations. It's tiring.

This is not the life, I wanted, I wanted my kind of life to be exciting.

I want to live with burning passion, to do what I love, what I am good at.

But what can I do?

This night had proven everything.

Struggling and breaking down would just show to others how weak you are inside.

At the end of the day, even how much I struggle, nothing will change. Nothing.

After tonight, I will still be a Republic poly student, taking a diploma in Biomedical sciences.

With a fucking GPA that me and my parents are not satisfied with.

Best solution is just to continue to be that freaking zombie that empty vessel and pretend nothing happen. I am still happy and contented with every day. There's nothing wrong with me.

There's nothing wrong with me.

At least that the least I can do. For now.