朋友。

对我来说，朋友这玩儿，总是可欲不可求。
它会在你最没有防范和准备的时候偷袭你。
有些友情会好的，让你感谢老天爷把他们次给你，让你觉得你是世界上最幸福的傻小子。
不管怎样，每一段友谊都会刻苦铭心，　
可是天下无不散的宴席，时间久了，友情会平息，会淡忘，甚至消失。

死党变成了好朋友，好朋友变朋友，而朋友变成匿名的朋友。

可能有一天，你会发现那个人已经不是那个会担心和关心你的那个人了。　

所以，我只能说，珍惜每一段真挚的友情，因为你永远不知道老天什么时候要让他们离开你。


珍惜吧，孩子！

Sometimes in life, not everything's your fault.
Although sometimes, depending on how you see it, might saw that you're in the wrong.
But guess what? Everything happened for a reason.

Everyone had come and make an imprint in your life is essential, for if he/she hadn't come into your life, you would not be who you are.

I am happy that all these happened. Cheer up. If you saw this. You know who you are.

Don't blame on yourself too hard. You are you. I like and befriend with you for who you are.

THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER, THOSE WHO MATTER DON'T MIND.


REMEMBER THAT.  

Muscle cramps.

DAMN THE SQUATS AND JOGS. 

MUSCLES ON MY THIGHS AND BUTT HURT MUTHAFCUKING BAD. 

STILL HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO DO MY WORKOUT. 

SIT-UPS AND PUSH-UPS FTW!!

Just hope that my tummy wouldn't hurt as badly or else...

OR I DON'T HAVE TO MOVE AT ALL. 

AND I WILL MOST PROBABLY DIE OF PAIN. 

I WILL SURVIVE!!

PS : This is a contradicting blog post as the pain has probably turned the blogger into some nonsensical person. 

I'm not kidding.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED THAT THIS IS A POST OF LONG NONSENSICAL RANTING.

How time can change one person's perceptive.

In the morning, I psycho-ed myself to never let food, be my source of comfort again. Never. I want my new life, my new self and I am going to get it no matter by hook or by crook.

But now, I just wish I can gorge myself with the food I love, because you know what? No one cares!!
I'm telling you. No one cares. It's said that, yea, my friends and family supports me, restricting me what I should eat and shouldn't eat. But guess what? When it's time to work out, they all pull out from it.

"I am tired." "I needa get this done by tonight." "I just ate, sorry."

All these excuses from time to time, given and shoved straight to my face.
But what can I do? Make a big fuss?

And when I do get my workout, I am being pinpointed at. "Your method won't work." "You're not doing it right." "You can go faster." "I did better that time, so you can too."

You know what? _|_
What's your ever highest weight huh and what's mine? Want to compare?

Every weight adds an extra effort I have to take to move my freaking body.
Why not you walk in my shoes huh? Add the weight on your body and see how it feels like?
See if you can "DO IT BETTER".

It's funny how a side of me understands that you are tired, you don't need this workout, you are just entertaining me, accompanying me so that it makes me happy, because you know that's what I want to do and this is what I want to do, it's none of your business, I shouldn't blame you. I should be laughing to myself you're trying your very best to workout together with me and that I shouldn't give up because its for my own good.

In this journey, I have conquered many temptations, having people eating things that I can't eat and having to eat alone, because I care. Having to tolerate with the pain that is so pain that I have to limb while walking. I have become so much stronger on the way.

But another side of me is just sick and tired, be it your excuses, the temptation, the aches I have to get everyday. It's crazy. Then again, maybe that is you, what can I do? You have the power to make the whole house be working out with you. But I can't.

So why am I trying so hard, when no one cares? NO ONE CARES. I am running out of motivation myself. So what I am 19, still wearing clothes like I have no motherfucking fashion sense. So what if I get fatter and fatter till the whole world shuns me, and I die with some freaking complications from some small disease.

JUST FORGET IT. FORGET IT.

Giving up.

I guess, I really have to give up the thoughts that food makes me happy.
Food is battery. Food is battery for me to live. Not to make me happy.

I can do it. I will do it.

But the intense workouts and the comments that my methods are wrong are really pulling me down. GAWD.
I must strive on!!

刚心血来潮的想写写什么，才发现原来我已经好久，好久没有更新博客了。
可能因为很多元素；例：忙，懒，累。

可是现在想了想，好浪费噢，因为忙，因为懒，还是累。就错失了机会。没能把好多值得纪念的事情记录下。有一丁丁的小遗憾。

现在先记录一下也只能用简单的文字带过就算了。
因为，过了那么就，当时的感觉也都不在了。可惜呀，可惜。

It's the holidays!! :D

燥了好久，久等，该死的暑假来了!! ヽ(´▽｀；)/♪

Though it's not really considered to be anything major or long, more like a study break in disguise coming to think that UT2 would be soon haunting me after the holidays end, but I'm kinda enjoying it. d(-_^)

Watching dramas after dramas, animes after animes, it's kinda SHIOKKKK~ 

Not to mention, outing after outing. I feel like a caged animal finally let out of my damn cage! ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ

Time really passes so fast. I have to say, even though I hate to admit it. 

It seems like I have just came back from Bangkok not long ago, being in the freshman in my second semester. 

Now, I am on my year2, 5weeks more before the whole semester comes to an end, with my 2012's trip coming in a month's time.

*Saying about that it's 5 more days to X'mas. Guess what? No mood. （－－）*

I think at this rate, I would soon become an old hag. 

真的是岁月如流沙，想要抓也抓不抓住。(>_<)

Saying about time, it;s already about 2-3 weeks since I have started dieting and workout. 

Can't imagine that I have finally made the decision to make that change. 

Starting to eat well, stop eating that much or as frequent as I used to. Controlling the kind of food I eat, the time I restrict myself from eating. 

Forcing myself to do at least some form of exercise before the day end.
 (even though I haven't done today's, shall do sit-ups before I go to bed)

My gymming buddieeeeeeeeeeee!! (ノ≧┏Д┓≦)ノ

*Like I said music has never let me down. Be it destress, emotional breakdowns, sleep, even working out!!!*

But still not feeling or seeing any results yet. Somehow, it's really quite demoralising.
Ever since then, I fear to stand on the weighing machine, really fear that after I stand on it, knowing that I haven't even losing an ounce even after the hunger and such.
I would lose all forms of strength and determination.I am really scared.

But I cannot give up. 死都不可以。ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ

For me, or for the people who support me and care for me. 

The aches that I have suffered every time I worked out, the hunger and cravings I have suppressed. 

我会加油的。(￣^￣)

I will make it to the end, with a healthier and slimmer me! 

ー(￣～￣)ξ NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR 2012!!

Have you been so sick of fried chicken that the smell turns you off?

I know I have been. :s 

From KFC to Texas chicken, because of deals and deals and craving to craving. 

I think I am sick of it already :x 

*Even wanted to puke when I smelled it on the bus just now :z* 

Just by looking at it, explains my weight gain recently and thanks to it, I think my throat is not in a very good condition already and thanks to JJ's upcoming new song, it would be the first ever song that I would not be able to handle. Thank you fried chicken. Thank you my lousy vocals. Thank you for everything. 

*Edit : Actually, I think it's more to the vocal that I blame, I bet JJ would still be able to sing this song again even if he eats like fried chick for like 2weeks in a row. Pure talent is pure talent. Nothing beats it. He's good, he improved, he became better. I am lousy, I improved, I became good. See the differences?* 

Arghhhh, gross much to me now :x 

I am so not touching it again till this feel actually goes away. OMG. 

My cheeks are so fat now :( 

Did my nails~ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Finally and successfully did my nails. LIKE FINALLY. 

Have been wanting to do my nails up, but here and there, still didn't get to do it. 

Be it, due to the god-damn failure PP or simply due to me not being able to sustain my patience, ruining it before it dries. ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ

Wanted something bright yet, something new that I didn't try before, therefore, used the shatter that I bought not very long ago even though I know Mom didn't liked it very much. :x

Didn't succeed the first time when I wanted a hot pink base with it. It didn't shatter very well and ended up looking like some shit. (*￣m￣)

But who cares, was too bored watching drama, ended up doing my nails whilst watching it. 

I swear you will need a skill of a ninja if you want it to turn out really nice!!

It dries and cracks really fast, so if you want it to cracks nicely, you have to ensure that every stroke have to be thick and accurate, or else, bye bye~

*A bit like doing calligraphy, dip, stroke across canvas, dip, stroke, dip stroke...*

Okay, I am blabbering nonsense again. Shall stop now.

Really don't know what to blog nowadays, life's really repetitive; wake up, go to school, buy breakfast, eat, lessons, eat, end class, eat, go home, nap, do RJ, surf net, sleep. The cycle recycles itself. (;¬_¬)

So what else is there to blog? Nonsense. HAHA. 

So much for reading my nonsense!! (☆^ー^☆)

梦，理想？

以前说我不敢想。
现在想了，前面却有了一大堆不知道从那里来的阻碍。
来了一大堆的后悔，一大堆的压力。
我本来就是一个没用的人。
反正也没用了，你花再多的时间和金钱在我身上也没用。

我还是什么都别想好了。继续走我的窝囊废，
我想逃避，不想面对，因为，想了只是让自己有的难过和失望的机会罢了。

我累了，真的累了。

✿

Super lame post, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!! 

I am blogging this because I am bored now. 

♥

I finally got a tumblr, changed the design and now it looks like that. 

Not very my style, look kinda like something that you will get from the AFA, but I don't really care. 'Cause you have to admit, it's kinda cute right? (≧∇≦)/

Kinda regretted to buy it in a moment of rash, but kinda happy now that I can drink my hot drinks in style!!

Had hot green tea in school all day long today!!

Super shiok especially I am in the aircon all day long!!（*´▽｀*）

ヽ（´ー｀）┌ Shiok shiok!! 

I'm back!!

Hi all! :) It has been indeed long since the time I have updated this little space of mine. 

Not a very good thing, but I am back. 

Life hasn't been much of a change for me, well except for the fact now that it's the second semester already, and quickly the UTs are going to all come rolling at me, 

but other than that, there are certainly some milestones I have crossed this period. 

If you guys know me well enough, I have always wanted to make youtube videos, be it reviews or just me singing, sort of always what I do, though I did have a start in the past, but it soon all died down after my Jess teong fanatic had died down during secondary school. 

But guess what, I AM BACK MAKING THEM!! 

Thanks to the encouragements and many stupid coincidences that happened (eg, the Sony singing competition and the 我就是爱唱歌 online competition) I sort of have the guts again to post. 

I know I am not some big shot or hidden talent that is able to sing till I can shake hearts or the range that is so wide that I can be able to attract attentions and be famous overnight. 

But I am enjoying it. Enjoying the feeling that everytime when I complete a cover, I know I am improving, the feeling of accomplishment is just awesome.  

Check them out if you haven't yet. It would be kinda nice for me to know, at least someone out there is supporting me. 

Okay, this post sounds very promotional to me all of a sudden, shall stop. Heh. 

PS: 7 more to reaching 10 covers!! Jiayou, hope that my passion would actually last till I reach 10 proper covers. JIAYOU SHERMAINE! :D

Life lesson.

Too bad, there's just one bit of me inside which will run out when I am performing in the crowds. 

If only I can calm down, know that I really can do it. I will be able to do it. For the many times of my life, it is the insecurities that has led me to my failure. 

How long will I take to learn this lesson. I don't know myself.

This? Utter failure. Thanks to the insecurities. :/

I AM IN CLASS BEING A SLEEPY HEAD.

With good aircon and comfy clothes, I AM FREAKING SLEEPY.

Don't wish to talk, think and do anything. 

Though I do have mood, if you're talking about dramas, games and animes :x 

BUT REALITY STRIKES,

:( Kinda sad to think that I will have a RJ to write later and I am still not done with my PP = No afternoon naps. FML.

PS: I must be insane to hope that the school catches fire or something, and they're going to disperse all the students and I can go back and sleep. ARGGGGGHHH. 

BIG SCREENS ARE AWESOME, BUT JUST DISTRACTING.

Yeps, up till now I am still distracted, due to the magnificently big screen. 

HOHO, big right? *So tempted to watch drama on it!* 

But cannot, then I will be screwed, cause the PP's due date is seriously drawing near. Like god damn near.

But instead of  getting into the mood to do some work, I am enjoying the good speakers, clearing some trash in it. It's getting kinda lag, after effects of using laptop for so long. 

I am kinda not used to the XP it's running on, not used to how msword is looking on it. Damn.

Super tempted to go back to my great lappie, but after overheating yesterday and it just refused to boot up. 

I decide that I should probably give it a rest. :D Yes, overheating is no fun. I have loads of data inside that is important to me. 

So while its having its rest, I have to find a way to concentrate. HAVE TO. *BIG SCREEN*  ZOMG. *NICE DRAMA*  *PALM SLAP* I AM SUCH A GONER.

THIS POST IS CRAP. AS CRAPPY AS ME. OMG. I AM GOING TO STOP. YES. IAMGOINGTOSTOP. #DEALWITHIT :P

Happiness.

Happiness can be so easily gotten, just give me ample time to get my good sleep, good food and good and simple times with my dear people who cares about me. 

But at the same time, what can be easily obtained is also easily destroyed.

Happiness, really is like thin ice.

Takes time to transform from water to solid, but just takes brief seconds to destroy.

I really hope that I would be able to get some true happiness back. 

Music didn't worked its magic really much last night, let's hope food do it's job later.

Reason why I am still "fluffy" till now. 

皇天不负苦心人，

我终于千心万苦的找到我的文件夹了！！！

有所欠妥又不知道什么时候找的感觉不好受～　

今天本来已经很累了，自己也对自己没什么希望了，可是错的人还是我，我已经拖了人家很久的时间，还是博一博翻翻看，如果正如我所想的不见了再来慢慢担心怎么交代。

结果，到处翻了两个多小时，还是给我找到了，非常开心，兴奋的还再找到文件夹那瞬间猛亲它。回想起来还真的很脏呢。

应为这个文件夹，手现在还在酸，人也应为如此流了一身大汗。不过，有好也有坏，我也应此找到了一些失踪以久的东西。回想起来，还真是值得。

至少现在找到了也不用担心了，松了心口的大石，应为我知道文件夹的主人真的很珍惜这份文件，如果不见了，我也不知如何开口。

文件夹找到了，心也舒服了，是时候冲个凉，睡大觉了～！

＊明天才来想如何解决应为我的“翻炒”而留下的痕迹吧～＊

晚安～

Maid's coming home in 4 more days!!!!!

 :D 

Good to know that,

Through the tiring moments in life, it's good to know that, there's always someone who cares about you somewhere, no matter where you are or how you are now. Even if they are not personally by your side, they seemed to be always with you.

I really miss my secondary school life, 
where things are really a little more simpler, and the people around me are more caring and kind. 

Honey for the heart.

Today has been a seemingly awesome, relaxing day.

Had some sudden urge of oozing courage to call someone I never thought I would call and talk to, so much for being a 不想后果的冲动派。

Awkward as much as it might feel in the duration, it was kinda an awesome feeling that somehow no amount of words can describe. Though awkward as it might seemed to be, it was worth it.

The day was really AWEEEEEEEE-SOMEEEEEEEEE.

Other than the moodswings and stuff, so much for being a Cancerian.

However it is also through all these things in life, that had really made me feel blessed that God had gave me so many angels in my life. Be it whether they are close or not so close to me in my life already, they still cared.

Sometimes that's all that matters in life.

It's those things in life that gives honey to your heart and make the world seem to be less complicated and hateful. Thanks all who make my day.

Cherish what I have rather than to cry over what I lost, is what I have to tell myself.

Let go, and all will be fine.

执著是好事，可是有时，对一些事情过于执著只会弄巧反拙罢了。

Sunken mood.

Tonight's not the night for happy post. You have been warned.

Tonight's seemed to become a bad night after all.

You said that you hate people coming to ruin you. Why are ruining me?

Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to get such treatments from you?

Just what am I to you? Stupid ego shit jerk.

Are status on the social websites so important?

认识你的这两年，我自认对你问心无愧。帮你的也不少。从来也没亏待过你。

可是，为什么要这样，为什么好像什么事都好像针对我？

我到底做了什么？让你可以这么的讨厌我？

如果你的目的是要彻彻底底的打败我，那我可以和你说，你成功了。你满意了吗？

Just freaking get out of my life, like how you said you would. Totally get out of my life.

Away to a place I won't sense you, won't see you and don't ever come back.

Just give me back my life. Give me back the old me.

Or maybe, just try to fix it and get. it. right.

But I doubt it will ever happen.

If only things were much simpler.

Unexpected, me no like this word. :/

So today was supposed to be cool day, with pocket burning but comfortable taxi car ride to school because I would be running late if I took the bus.

Had great iced mocha in the morning at school to kickstart my day and get myself pumped for my biochemistry UT3 paper. Sorta, luckily got a good paper, where I understood the questions and were able to relate to the questions they were shooting me.

#SWAG :D

Though of all the mistakes that I saw and knew after that, it was still fulfilling to know that my UT3 had a great start.

Reached home early, had some great japanese food

and watched a bit of It started with a kiss again. Had some laughter, got some sleep to replenish those that I have lost for mugging.

BUT >3< !!!

Mom had to spoil it with the air con servicing.

Really? Like why can't let my good day continue to run on after my nap, with a good uninterrupted revision for my microbiology?!

Don't they know I am on an exam period? :(((

Couldn't really study much with all the stuff, all the looking, walking around, noise and shit going around and only could really get to work when Sis came back and I was able to go back facing my window and plug in to some music to drown out the sound.

But it was still bad SINCE THE PHONE WON'T STOP RINGING.

OH,GIVE ME A BREAK.

Really got to start work like at 7pm when the repairman left.

And guess what? Having an attention span of an squirrel, I can't last for long till I became too saturated for anything.

Took breaks after breaks, dragged on distractions after distractions.

*I still had to do household chores in the midst of all these, because sis said she was too tired. Pffft* FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

SOOOOOOOOOOOO,

I AM STILL NOT FREAKING DONE MUGGING AND I AM ALREADY HAVING ALL THE HAND CRAMPS ROUTINES THAT I ALWAYS GET DURING MAJOR EXAMS. PERIOD.

As much as I kinda want to finish it all, my body is aching all over and my lids are closing already.

Thank God that tmrw's paper is in the afternoon which means sufficient sleep :D *YESSSSSS* and hopefully, I will have the urgency to actually wake up earlier and do more mugging.

Don't want to have the feeling of getting ran over by a firetruck when I am doing the paper.

Let's hope for the best.

So much for the unexpected turn. :/

I hate the unexpected. Though surprises are nice. :/

Okay, my brains malfunctioning already. I think.

In their shoes.

Never say something is too hard, or too easy, unless you have done that, been there.

Know how it exactly felt.

Talk is cheap, walk your talk.

But sometimes, all one need is a little common sense and understanding.

All will be fine. But not many have that tolerance.

At least, not you. Sadly.

But what can I do? :/

Now even my good isn't good.

For everything in life, for everything to go back to normal, I need my life back, can the rough patches in life just leave me? Or maybe can I just turn back clock, back to a time where everything's much simpler. A much happier me.

I miss that Shermaine. I miss my youth.

Lazy day, good food :)

My first meal of the day, at 4pm.

My so-called-breakfast + lunch, a meal to prevent me from fainting at home, while my sister takes her own sweet time to get me my spaghetti.

Lunch also let her delay till dinner already -.-

I swear it is definitely of the milk tea that I end up losing my sleep last night and end up feeling like a zombie now. So much for having 3 packets of powder in one cup for greater taste.

真的是，厉害就好不要假厉害。

Dinner of the day, actually only an hour after my lunch~

Super super super shiok seafood marianda and mushroom soup.

But also super fattening, I can feel my pants getting tighter after I finish my meal.

*suscipious eyes*

Lame post, but I just feel like blogging it out :)

Somehow I feel that these photos are nice, my camera is being kind to me by giving me sharp pictures :D

[Review] A-JAYS Three :D

So for people who know me close enough, have been wanting to get to do some reviews and stuff to share how I think on pairs of headphones, earpiece and plugs I spend.

Because personally, reviews usually determines whether I will get that pair of earpiece after I have set my eyes on them whether be it from word of mouth or on the design wise.

So this is going to be my first ever review on one of the earpiece I have owned; the A-JAYS 3 ~

So what has attracted me to lay eyes on these pairs of earpiece was actually the tangle free cable, very similar to the ones from monsters.

I personally liked the flat cable a lot when I see them because they are very different from the usual rope liked cables, they seemed more unique to me but the real deal of those monster cables are really too much I can afford.

So basically, what you would be getting in the box would be what is shown below,

1. 5 pairs of rubber tips (including the one on the plugs itself)

(XXS, XS, S, M, L)

Generally a major plus sign for me since I have ear canals between a small kid and a young teenager, so the medium was always too big and the small are always too small. But with so many sizes to choose from, I did get to choose a size that I prefer.

It is rather important, that you get a good seal for your plugs to maximise your plug's potential, hence the importance of getting the right fit :)

2. 1-into-2 adapter

For situations when you need an extra plug-in port or when you and your friends want to watch or hear something together.

3. 2-in-1 adapter

Not very important, but you will see its usefulness when you're on a plane :)

4. Hard carry case

A must have for me now! :D

You wouldn't one your expensive earplugs to dangle again in your bag and spoil right?

Exceptionally perfect for me since I have the habit of dumping it in my bag. Easy to find since now I place them in the case. But in my opinion, the case's a little small for the earpiece itself.

I have to really squeeze it in. Rather heart aching for me, cause every time I do that, I just feel that my plugs are going to spoil or break sooner.

So I tend to use other cases from my older earpiece to store it instead.

So, for the big question.

How's the sound?

Sound of this baby actually stunned me the first time I put them on, the bass was powerful! I have tried them on various songs ballads, kpop, cpop.

The bass was superb, strong and clear but not to the extend of overwhelming the whole song, there were also clear highs, giving you the details you want in your song and won't exactly sound muddy if you listen to songs that totally have no bass.

*However, do note that the bass on these are still weaker if you compare them to the other models in this A-JAYS series. The other models would offer you more bass, but less clarity.

Good and the bad?

There really isn't much I can complain about this pair of plugs.

But what made me love this baby sort of also made me dislike them to a certain extend.

A good example would be of the flat cables, lovable for design and its tangle-free function. However, it is also due to it that it is more heavier than other pairs of plugs out there, hence, creating sounds when the earpiece rub against one another. It's rather distracting for me.

It is not so bad when you just sitting in front of your computer, plugged in, the problem comes when you are wearing it on the go, walking to school and things like that. I can say, it's definitely not a good pair to wear to work out.

Another thing is the short inserting plugs, its not that it's not good.

It is because of this that the design of the plugs become so minimal and beautiful but yet, it is also due to this that the plugs may not be able to stick in some people's ear for a long time. Personally have not encountered this, but have heard some of my friends say it, so might as well, tell you people about it.

Overall

8/10

I feel that these plugs did worth my money for 98SGD to a certain extent so far for the bass and clarity they are providing me with, something that my previous pair didn't have.

If only the cables didn't have noise. This would be a pair that I would dearly love. But I guess nothing's perfect in the world, we just have to make do with some flaws.

Do feel free to comment me or tag me if you have any enquires or suggestions.

Hope I have helped you in one way or another through my review. ^^ Byes~

Failure in life.

Fail in doing well in school, fail in having a status, fail in chasing my dreams, fail in not trying to continue trying to chase my dreams, fail in protecting my friends, fail in being a good friend, fail for being not good enough, fail in letting others see that I am better than you think I am.

All in all, I am just a failure.

A failure that no one sees.

I seriously am losing more and more confidence in myself then never before.

Gosh, I need my life back.

Rough patch. Pffftt.

As much as I want to move on with life and not whine like a spoiled Singaporean kid.

I seriously need a way to whine out all that I can. Not through keeping it any longer or talk it out with my dear ones. I have never seriously felt life to be so demoralising.

Having to be nagged and scolded every single day, having to be misunderstood by people you once cared about and worst of all, have no where to vent. Life never seemed to be so lifeless. Having to live normally seemed like a chore.

As much as I wished to cry it all out and sleep to my heart's content and wake up to that cheerful me, this all seems to be a luxurious privilege too good to be fulfilled.

For I could face much more, if I just heck cared about the world and lived in my own lalaland.

The only thing I can do is sallow everything back down and stayed strong.

I am really surprised how one could act under the change of situation.

I am really tired. How I wished that everything could just stop and return to normal.

Give me my life back. I am really tired. Really tired.

I am thankful for those who cared, and understood. I am sorry I can't reciprocate what you have done back. Sorry for being so stressed up and bullshity, deep down I have appreciate what you done, your efforts to cheer me up. Going that extra mile to understand the situation I am in.

Trying to make me happy through every means I can afford. If it wasn't for you guys, I think I would have collapsed.

Thanks for being that tinge of honey, when everything is bitter and sourish. Thank you.

Thankful for the creator of blogs, ranting out unconditional really works.

As much as I hope to stay at this state of tiny happiness, it's time I go back to reality.

Where life have to go on, Mom's still going to come back at the same time, my RJ's still gonna close its submission at 1159.

镜子之道。

在很多时候，人往往会投诉说为什么这个人会这样，这样，这样。

会那样，那样，那样。

不过，有没有回头想一想，看一看为什么会如此呢？

如果换成是自己，你会怎么做呢？

做的会比那个人还好吗？还是会和她做出相同的举止。

处理的方法有没有可能比她还要来得更糟糕。

我们人啊，就是太会抱怨了。有时，在抱怨的过程会忽略了很多。

伤害到的也可能很深，很深。

我常常把责任推在你身上，想一想难道我就没错吗？

可是，我该怎么去救，怎么去弥补？

"人生就想一片镜子，若要看见一个美丽的反映，自己也要对镜子先秀出灿烂的笑容。”

－张爵西

可是偏偏就是对你没有效。:／

PS: 不过，我还是相信只要真心对待，不管谁都会被打动。

人真的感觉的到谁是对谁好的。

I really thank the Gods and Angels up above that had sent you guys to me.

如果没有你们，我可能就没有那么大的福气了。

一份得来不易的友情。

希望越大，失望越大。越是强求，越是难实现。

可是，不可能的还是发生了。

真的是一份得来不易的友情。

:D

Life without maid, 3 days in a row.

Yeps, it has been three days in a row already, spoilt brat has learnt how to open her own door, wash her own clothes and pick after her own bed.

Life had been more busy, but not hectic yet I would say.

Maybe I haven't reached the stage where tired school day meets tons of unfinished housework.

But I just seriously think that doing household chores are really not as easy as they might seem to be.Mopping the floors of the entire house can already get me sweating like a pig.

Or maybe, I am really not as fit as my age seemingly should be.

Super unhealthy and unfit.

The food that I am eating is also kinda getting a little unhealthy.

Dinner for day1, Instant noodles directly from pot, cause lazy to wash my own plate.

Lunch for day2 (home alone, lazy to cook or go out) MacDelievery :)

Life is seemingly good this few days and I am still surviving despite of all the backaches and muscle cramps from house work. :/

Let's just hope that I adapt earlier than I should and can get over the fact that I am on my own for now. This is what I have to go through.

PS: I am typing this post in the midst of the Biochem meeting1 because our Faci simply is not talking and sitting there. Waiting for us to start while, we are waiting for her to start.

How contradicting.

Call for help! :O

Maid went home this morning.

Spoilt brat will have to learn to open my own door, buy my own food, mop my own floor and wash my own clothes.

May God bless me to survive this fifty days.

人生哲学。

越是要坦白的澄清所有的所有。

越是表现你心虚的一边。

Sometimes nothing is all you have to say.

The day it failed on me.

Remember the great new reliance I told you guys I had?

The beautiful white tours I now bring everywhere I go?

It broked :(

Seriously cannot believed that this happened to me. Like seriously?Pffttttt.

*Forever alone face*

Guess I have to push back that review that I wanted to do till my replacements come. :/

#Livewithit

First post as a 19 years old kid.

So is there any differences? :P

Still that same old bushy hair, thick long moppy fringe and those super annoying fats at my cheeks. BOOOOOOOO!

Be it 18 or 19. I am still me.

The only difference's maybe my telomere might be just 1mm shorter as I am closing to my death :P *touch wood*So much for my cold and self cursing jokes, my 19th birthday had been awesome.

Awesome the word itself is not enough to contain how I feel.

It's really one of the best birthdays I have had in a long time.

It's surprise after surprise, after surprise.

First up a cake from my beloved friends; Liting~

Which supposedly was something I had to live with because my present was not ready and would only reach in 9 days because of a shipment delay. LIVE WITH IT :/

I really thought they were serious.

But I was freaking wrong :O

Those sweet guys came up to my class when I was at my most busy and frustrated moments.

I swear I didn't see them until my classmates tapped on me. :X

and gave me an enveloped that was glued like the glue in the whole world was free,

and a suspicious pink box that look like this.

Please agree with me that it really looks like a box that people put girly dresses inside.

But thankfully it's not :)

It's a beautiful panasonic headphone that I wanted~

It's beautiful right?

*Please say yes, or else I am kill you with my eyes :)*

*Would consider to do a review if I have the time :) The sound is simply awesome.*

Then my classmates sang like a birthday song for me when I came back~

Awww, thank you :)

Then Shermin came up at the end of the day to pass me this,

and this :)

Thanks, I love it. It's not about how much the things costed in total,

it's the thoughts that really mattered.

Family even bought me an awesome cake :)

Loved how my mom asked the person to write my name on the cake :)

All in all, I really had the most awesome birthday this year, feeling so blessed to have friends and family caring for me, and taking that extra mile to grant my wish or to send me gifts and blessings to make me smile.

I thank all the people for all the gifts, messages, texts, hugs and calls.

I appreciate them each very much. Thank you. :)

PS: I have had so much cake, I think I have grown some pounds :(