Changes.

Inevitably, as always. Change is everywhere.

Not that I am trying to highlight the point that I have always been the noble one and so.

But I just can't help but ask what's wrong with my life. I can confidently say, my life is no much different than yours, yours and yours. But why I am feeling so hollow in the inside.

In terms of friendship and all those relationship shit. Why am I always the one that's giving, I always feel that I am the one that's giving, but not having anything back in return. But for all my many many efforts to make something happen, I am still always the least prior one.

Be it it's because of you, you, you or YOU. I can't help but feel that surplus, and that I am not worthy of your time. Maybe it is me that is asking too much. Maybe it's me that's making a fuss out of nothing.

I am afraid that something in the past may happen again and I can once again feel that I am going back to those protective layers, afraid. Afraid that something beyond my control would happen again. God. WHY?

I'm tired of hidding and suppressing but then again, even if I were to show it out, who's gonna care.

Precisely my point. 

Maybe, just maybe, I should learn to be independent. 

人善被人欺。

本来是很快乐的一天，为朋友计划的惊喜也大功告成，算是圆满落幕。
我不是一个对钱很计较的人。认识我的人都因该知道，也领教过。
只要是在我能力范围，而且让我觉的值得的。我不会计较。
因为往往，钱可以做到很多事情，很多时候，很多东西也是钱买不到的。

钱买不到失去的时间，让我回到过去。
钱也不能买到快乐，让我现在的心情可以好一点。

虽然，现在真的是为了钱心才隐隐作痛，可是心里却知道，痛的是因为底片摸都没摸就不见了，用都没用就不见了。还因为不见搞得人人不欢而散。

而且，如果介意的话就不会想每个人都分一张。

真讨厌。

讨厌我这么好欺负。
讨厌为什么那么糊涂，让别人有机可乘。

真笨。

Day 32 - Life with Maid.

Yes. I have officially survived life without maid for a month.
Should say that I have already got used to the fact that I no longer have another person in my house whose sole purpose of being there is just to get the house clean and so as to make me feel like I am the best spoilt brat in the entire Earth.

But I have indeed survived without her. For 32 days!! :D HURRAYYYYYYYY.

In this duration before my last post about maid, I got to learn to buy my own food.
This post should be an upgrade I should say. Through these days, I learn to cook my own food.

I don't know what I should say about my culinary skills. I seriously think the things that I learnt in F&N have just gone into the drain because my life have always been that good that I don't have to lay a finger to get food in my tummy. It's always just a call away. (Sounds like delivery, but that call is to my maid. HARIIIIIIII is what you will always hear when she's still around. :P Now that makes her sounds like she's dead. OKAY CAN.)

Since not having to lift a finger, having to cook again is just like cooking blindfolded which end up with lousy food that's always overcooked. -.- Hope I can find back that sense of culinary so that my food won't be that bad. Seriously, since the food that I am cooking nowadays are still can food as compared to how I am cooking in the past? Still a long long long way. HAHA.

Though to be honest, it looks quite nice from the picture. I am proud of that :D 

Magic of instagram, even shit looks nicer with all the filter :P 

Hmmmm, life is getting random everyday.

SPOILT BRAT RANT.

As the title suggest. Please feel free to just leave if you are unfamiliar with me to know that I am very obviously angry and that I am some unfilial brat that not know my parents are the best people on Earth and that I do not know that it's because of them that I am able to create this very blog post that speaks ill about them. YES, I am that irony.

BUT I AM GOT DAMN PISSED NOW. I DON'T CARE. *RAGE MODE ON.*

I mean seriously, yes, I know. Phones are expensive to get. YES. I KNOW.
But seriously, instead of having to cheapskate over some lousy phone, why don't just get me that smartphone that I wanted. Pay more, use longer. Just like that E71. I used it for 4 years isn't it? Let you sold two phones on the way, adding up to more than the price of the phone itself when you first bought for me.

SO WHY NOT NOW? Oh because it was expensive. OKAY CAN.

SO DON'T BLAME ME FOR WHINING PLEASE.

Yes, don't give me that shit. You changed your phone halfway through via someone's else's plan. OH. So I cannot do the same. OKAY CAN.

If you had let me change to that phone that I have wanted, all these would not have happened.

Don't let me take 3G. See what Singtel have done. Changed the deal, now I have to ask about to see if it's enough to use before I upgrade halfway. OKAY CAN. SEE WASTE MORE MONEY.

Just freaking let me have it my way. Then all these would have happened. I won't be stucked with a phone that gives me problem everytime that an iPhone 3G can do better and stucked with that old iPhone that you didn't want anymore. OKAY CAN.

So what if you wanted to swop your iPhone 4S for me? Do you think I am that unfilial and that stoned hearted to take what belongs to you? Think of how you have raised me.

Thanks to you I am stucked in a dilemma. Thank you. OMG. Fuck my life.

Pet Peeves?

Do you have one? Having a need to face a wall just to study? Clean room, nice beds maybe? 

I have loads too. Just like mentioned on top. I need them all.
YES. I NEED TO FACE A WALL TO STUDY. FULLSTOP

BUT. I seriously admit I do have exceptionally major one for electronics.

Not clothes, not bags, not shoes, but electronics. 

Don't have a good earpiece? I whine. 

Scratching my new ipod case? I whine. 

Screen protector having scratch and bubbles? I whine. 

HAHA. Just what should I do with myself huh? 

Now it has aggregate to not standing good friends and people around me having good earpiece and case. 

TIME TO STOP. Hmmmmm. I know I have to. 

Kaythxbyes. 

So damn tired. People's bloody moodswing, social games, logbook and all these FYP shit's killing me. K. 

Goodnight. Zzzzzzzz.