安静的夜晚。

可能是天后不经意的提醒，想起了你。
今晚，我屈服了。可能是因为那些不经意的提醒，心甘情愿的又回到那种迷恋的情形。
On repeat 了你的歌，又有了以前那种平静的感觉。

可能，舒服是因为能至少觉得孤独的温习有人陪着。
也可能只是书和感冒已经泡坏了脑袋。

不管怎样，今晚有了想你的感觉，我不否认。

想起了那些开心的回忆。往事往往只能回味。
现在的我们变的什么样，我也真的没眼去看。

可能就是如此颓废才选择了放弃，放弃里却流着一点的依恋。
依恋着事会有些转机。

不过，珍惜这些时刻吧，至少现在的我是平静的。

I hate getting sick. SERIOUSLY.

Hate the feeling of feeling weak yet the world still goes on. 

>...<

Day 10; Life without Maid

10 days without maid. 10 days already. Time seemed to fly past slow now, since I dread every part that I no longer have a maid at home to take care of the chores at home and I have to be the one doing the chore.

Then again, in an blink of an eye, it has been 10 days.

I guess it is pretty obvious that I dread the fact that I no longer am entitled to be in the spoilt brat category from the fact that I now use the duration of time I am without a maid. Having to learn life lessons and getting to think about things that seemed so much simpler in the past.

Today's no different. Having to fall sick on a weekend, and best, to be home alone sick.

Sure, being home alone is definitely awesome, the only part I love ever since my maid left. Peace and tranquility of being alone? BEST (Y).

But the part where having to take care of the house, do the household chores even though you're sick and almost dying just sucks big time and of course, from that statement above, yes. I did screw my day up just sleeping and of course messing up my house, not most of the housework and since I am too lazy to go buy food for myself, and end up cooking shit for myself.

BEST PART OF ALL THIS? I STILL HAVE TO FREAKING CLEAN UP. _|_

God, today's experience really made me think, if. I mean if. I really will to struggle through and make my way to Monash, will I even be able to take care of myself? I don't think so.

Hell man, I am learning something new, almost everyday without maid. Getting to know how lucky and spoilt I am all these years. Even though I well admitted it long time ago.

Really hope I recover soon. There's just too many things waiting for me to be done. Now's really not the time to collapse. OMG.

Day 7; Life without Maid.

Lesson learnt today? Please don't be lazy to be decently dressed, even if. You're just intending to go taobao some food DOWNSTAIRS.

Yes, especially if you're a spoilt brat like I am. *nods*

For all you know, all the stores downstairs aren't open or preparing to open and end up like me, walking around a mad auntie with auntie-ish pajamas and totally unkept hair walking the whole stretch of market with people looking at you like WHAT?! 

OKAY CAN. TOTALLY UNWANTED.

I mean seriously, not knowing your environment well enough will just lead you to this situation. I mean, really.
All the humiliation, just for a meal of breakfast. *sigh*

Even got physically "scanned" by the auntie when I went to get it.

But I guess, with my auntie-ish outfit, I passed without getting any asked for any identifications. :) 

OKAY CAN. *Roll eyes*

Day 6; Life without Maid.

(Yes, am finally able to post pictures in HD :) You don't know how happy I am.)

Life, without maid. Six days in a blink of an eye. 

I SURVIVED SIX FUCKING DAYS!! 

Got to finish work; RJ, quiz, evaluation early today. 

Usually, at those special days like this, I would be chilling out with my anime, novels or having an early bedtime, but guess what? 

I have yet to rest. Thanks to the evilness of housework.

The thing about housework isn't how much you need to do. Seriously.

It's the amount of times you need to do. 

All may be seemed done and completed today with big sense of self achievement, for all you know, process starts all over again. -.-

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Wash clothes, vaccum, mop floor, wash pots, cups, pans, rice, cook rice, eat, sleep. Wake up. 

Tsk. Give me a break.

I want my spoilt brat life back.

Then again. Maybe not. It's time for a change.

The 20th.

So, I am 20 now. Righttttttttttttttttttttt.

As compared to 2011, 

(TIME MACHINE, POWER) 

Phew, it was hectic. 

This time round, things were a lot simpler, being a year 3 student often means more work, more work and more work, (not mentioning that THE FYP SUBMISSION DATE IS ON THE 13TH JULY) who actually gives a shit when they themselves are so freaking busy right? 

Even I don't give a shit, to be very honest. 

Furthermore not mention that 14th July 2012 fell on a Saturday. 

All the well, no school, no pressure. NO CELEBRATION :) 

Actually, it was really this pathetic, I am not kidding you. 

I even thought that I would just squander today away, home alone, with no maid(hence the need to do housework) and no date~ and spazzing over  boys over flowers with my stash of durain.

But I guess God's always fair to kind birthday people.

I got an impromptu date with HER. 

So, to spend my not so forever alone time :) 

Seriously, the day was not that spectacular to be honest, very much like every other time I have went out with her, but something about it today just makes me feel different. Maybe it's the birthday halo effect :/ Oh well. So be it. (AND VERY MUCH SHERMIN TRYING TO PAY ALMOST EVERYTHING FOR ME, even buying me the wireless mouth that I contemplated for so long!!)

And so, there goes how my 20th birthday took place. A day full of cheap thrills I should say :) 

I don't about these cheap thrills but something about it just makes me feel so happy. 

Going to ang mo kio just so that we can have KOI. 

Having to just walk around aimlessly in ntuc, sharing about life, and just going to walk at my favourite challenger to check out the lastest tech is all it takes to make simple happiness. 

OH.

Not forgetting these, 

Having to be in a totally kids environment squeezing and crouching just so we can draw on the table that we actually meant for kids. Love them to the bits even though they were free thanks to the opening of some shopping center at ang mo kio (who cares, there's still nothing inside anyway.) 

Made the first one just out of random thought, since I was really embarrassed of the fact that we are so overgrown in a bunch of bouncing, active kids. 

Became really oblivious to the environment when doing the second one, since the people are really nice there. HEHE.

LOVE THE MOTIVATION. HEHE. 

Really making them my birthday wishes. 

 加油~

It's really nice to be just spending time, doing usual things and being yourself. :)

That's how my 20th birthday. 20 years living life already. Fast. 

Thanks for everything. 

HAHA, I am back to the crazy random .gif style. :x 

Day1 - Life without MAID.

Yes, the spoilt brat is once again faced with this dilemma. SURVIVING WITHOUT MAID. 

Somewhat, some shit happened somewhere, and I am stuck with this stupid shit. 

*sigh* is all I can do. 

Oh. Not forgetting. "Hello, household chores, we meet again." 

But wait. I am happy to say, I survived today, *WAIT FOR IT* 

I SURVIVED THE DAY, DOING MOST OF THE HOUSE'S HOUSEHOLD CHORES! 

YES, I DID. 

VACCUMING, MOPPING, WASHING TOILET, CLOTHES, EVEN COOKING. 

I FUCKING DID IT. 

Hence explains why I am still awake at this freaking hour, doing my report. :) 

I should be sleeping, but I am childishly, wasting my sleep boasting about my cheap prideful thrill. :{ 

GUSTA. ME LIKEA ~

PS: ONLY COMPLAIN. I AM NOT THAT FIT, AND I AM HAVING LACTIC ACID BUILD UP IN MY MUSCLES LIKE I JUST SWIM A MILLION MILES ACROSS THE SEA. 

ALTHOUGH I DO YOU, DEAR HOUSEHOLD CHORES, BUT SERIOUSLY. 

I HATE YOU. 

PS/S: I must be mad, the after troll of report writing :P

牙齿呀，牙齿。

亲爱的牙齿报告，我就快要被你逼疯了。

给你两条路走，要不你自己完成，要不我去跳楼算了。

我的天，为什么人要有牙齿。

就不能想照片里的小孩一样，没牙齿还是可以笑的了开怀！

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

我想我真的是疯了吧，疯的都鬼画连篇了。

＊在望望。。。＊

救命啊！！！！

杀了我吧。-.-

变化。

小时候，大人们都会告诉我，长大后人的思想都变。

说真的不相信。我就是我。怎么会变？

不过，人真的会变。样子变，思想变，连口味也变了。

不知不觉，慢慢的改变着，变的连我自己都察觉到了。

不知何时，开始为了学喝咖啡因为睡眠不足。

不知何时，开始觉得需要的时间好想越来越多。

不知何时，开始觉得钱好像永远不够花似的。

不知何时，我对人也越来越有戒心了。

而也不知何时，为了身材和健康，开始学会了欣赏苦茶，爱上家常便饭，放弃了很多以前不能没有的零食。虽然，我也不是一个很有身材的人。

也因为是时候摆脱肥胖更让我尝试了各种各样的运动，爱上了游泳，在水里是的平静和自由。

人真的会变。每时每刻都在变。可能自己都不知道自己边了。

虽然，有时会很想回到过去，可是可惜的是，我们一变就不可能回得去了。

就像当年我们为了更好的玩具，放弃的旧玩具，一放弃了就不会再拿起来玩了。

Change of blogskin ☻

Yes, as what the title suggest, a change in new skin and it took unexpectedly longer than I expected.
Oh well, with all the work and exams chugging at you, who can work right?
Besides I always believed in the magic hour thing, it's either you have it or you don't.

(But the point is it won't come unless I am really down and thinking, free from all the damn proteins.(；_・）)

With all that said, I finally PROCRASTINATED all work yesterday afternoon and seriously spent the whole afternoon doing this header picture you see above, the differences of having to do this the entire afternoon was I enjoyed every bits of it, even though it is sometimes, irritating; never mask properly, never cut  properly. Argghhh. Just die.

That's why they always say, time pass fast when you're having fun, when I look up from my screen, done with my prideful master piece, it was already 8++. Chiong RJ, a bit of TV, and a tiny, weeny bit of FYP report, and it was time for bed.

Well, at least all is worth it, I got quite a positive feedback~ That's good to know at least people appreciate your work, but I am still not buying it, because I still feel lack of something, I don't know what, but it's lacking, as compared to the first time round, that very first skin I made for this blog. HAHA, designer's issue!!

Well. I don't have time to change it anymore anyway. This is it.

This will be my prideful no.2 since the second one was just random put up to replace the first, since I was bored of it and since many people on it doesn't matter that much to me anymore, what's the point of holding on? ㋡


So, it is from this,

To this, 

 Now to this. 

BE SUPERHERO; RIDING WITH THE STARS AND CHASE MY DREAMS~

(Moreover to remind myself I am my own hero, I can do it, I can save my own ass!!)

PS: Sudden inspiration that I SHOULD HAVE DONE A BOOM SHAKALAKA themed one instead!! T.T DAMN HOW CAN I BE A SUPER HERO WITHOUT BOOM SHAKALAKA POWER!! :/ HAHAHA. DAMN.

But I also don't know how to put it in anyways. Maybe a THUNDER behind me? :x HAHAHAA. I am crazyyyyyyyy.

PS/S: Up till now I have done a good job in procrastinating. I am using the slot to for report writing to write up this post, how perfect. (~-~;)ヾ(-_-;) ｵｲｵｲ...