I don't know why I would break down today. At this moment.
Maybe my inner self is surpressing all this a little too long and a little too hard.
And maybe I just don't want my sister to go through the same path as I did.
Even though it will be a little unfair for me then.
能救一个是一个。
Maybe, also, I am just sick and tired of being a zombie, going to school everyday without a fucking aim. Just going to school, for the grades, for the expectations. It's tiring.
This is not the life, I wanted, I wanted my kind of life to be exciting.
I want to live with burning passion, to do what I love, what I am good at.
But what can I do?
This night had proven everything.
Struggling and breaking down would just show to others how weak you are inside.
At the end of the day, even how much I struggle, nothing will change. Nothing.
After tonight, I will still be a Republic poly student, taking a diploma in Biomedical sciences.
With a fucking GPA that me and my parents are not satisfied with.
Best solution is just to continue to be that freaking zombie that empty vessel and pretend nothing happen. I am still happy and contented with every day. There's nothing wrong with me.
There's nothing wrong with me.
At least that the least I can do. For now.
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