OMG, I don't know why I felt emotional when I see this.

EMO ONE CORNER LISTENING SAD CHINESE SONGS AND DRAW CIRCLES :(

*But I am stuck in biology class now :(*

Geeks have rebellious times.

Yes, Shermaine is feeling rebellious.

Don't worry, Shermaine has tried to calm herself down before coming to type this post, so as to be fair to that someone who she thinks haven't been fair to her.

You know life has serious been a very big piece of shit for me?

Like seriously, first was with the freaking UTs.

Then it was the stupid school fees that I got blamed for.

Now, a quarrel that was like unwanted. Seriously. UNWANTED.

I mean like seriously can YOU be more fair to me, like what others had always say, just because I am the older one, the more normal one, the geekier one, you hasn't cared about me much ever since then.

Even since I became your pet. The one that listens to you.

You said I was discontented with what I have when I am not.

Did I ever ask you for anything for the entire year?

Wanted to buy anything? Except if I really really need to?

I am also a teenager, I have my needs.

But did I ever asked?

I knew I was a headphone freak, did I ever told you I wanted anything.

Or have you ever wanted why I am so inclined in all that media shit stuff, because that is where I get my substitute.

Do you even know?

You told me to use my own money, then when I use it you would say my money all came from your pocket.

When I wanna work for my own money, you said children should enjoy their lives while they can.

You're a paradox.

So much for the chat that made everything started,yes. A CHAT.

Okay, maybe a hidden motive, but you don't have to blow up.

Just because I stepped on your Achilles heel.

Out of all the beautiful things in life...

I am starting to think that...

Sleep and full body baths are becoming rare privileged luxuries in my life.

Ps: Yes, I know, its random.

Awaking.

I guess I was also once a child that was in that kinda situation.

Or maybe even worst. Okay... Never mind.

Okay, so apart of me feeling that I am going to fail my physics, and I deserved it 'cause I didn't study much, today was suddenly a nostalgic day.

Didn't know why too, suddenly all memories of just anything and everything related to secondary school just flowed through my mind.

The good, the bad, the tantrums, the traumas and the drama.

It made me cry and cry.

Making me miss the good old days, looking young, wearing that uniform, wishing to grow up, having to do almost everything without thinking about the consequences.

Making me regret the many wrong choices that I have made in the past. Made my feel mature of who I am now and being so senseless to make the right from the wrong.

Making me asking myself now, was things really as difficult as it seemed that time?

I don't know anymore. I'm really nothing.

But for the many regrets, the one who started that trigger.

Thank you for giving me whatever you can even though I am giving you crap.

Thanks for helping me when I am just someone that no one really cares.

Thanks for being that motherly figure that seemed like a god-sent angel when my life was a piece of shit.

I must work harder. Harder. HARDER.

I wish when hopefully someday, when I get to meet you, I get to show you that, I have really grown up. Into someone different. More different than I use to be in the past.

MOTIVATION :D

PS : Seriously, like the question that people will always say when they have a regret.

"If I can turn back in time, I would really......"

But what would I really do, would I do a worst job?

*ta ta ta ta ta ta ta :D*

Yes, I have converted back to being a K-ON fanatic :D

A AFA lagging syndrome :D

So, yeah, life is still as boring and as repetitive as a broken tape recorder.

But that's just life isn't it? Repeats itself every time till the day you die.

Okay, too negative.

So things had been good on my one day raya break :D

Doing everything from watching anime, checking out on YouTube, to eat my kimchi.

Everything but study.

Okay, maybe I did a little, as compared to doing nothing like my sis.

But UT's coming, and I don't think I am ready enough. OMG.

God bless me, okay?

Going to do some questions and go to bed.

Okay, I really should stop :D :D :D

Epic day of sugar rush! :D

YEAH. EPIC. I KNOW RIGHT.

*Shermaine's into this kinda EPIC gif recently, so bear with me :)*

So life has been alright, but tiring, maybe for now.

As the title suggest, the tiredness probably contributed from the mad sugar rush

*(Red bull, iced chocolate, barley) had today due to insufficient sleep from revision of yesterday.

Yes, I revised and hopefully it don't disappoint me.

I'm supposed to study again now for math, but I am tired. OMG.

Shermaine, 加油！Study your maths, okay?

If not later Manik zapp you with his eyes to outer space! *opps*

I need to study, I want to go AFA :(

*Can't nobody, can't nobody hold us down~ :)*

Okay, I am going nuts due to deprivation of sleep. *wash face*

I'm just a trash bin.

And yes, I am really not as confident as I look or project myself to be.

Like others, I'm afraid of changes. Maybe even more than some of you out there.

And here I am blasting my headphones, trying to just get out from this world.

Sometimes, being old or mature isn't as good as it seemed.

It just meant you're collating more and more secrets that you just wished would stop taunting you. Very much at least for me.

Since now, someone had been taking me for their trash bin.

A very large-sized one and in a daily disposal.

What if... you're that rich?

Yeah, call me a glee addict, whatever.

I finally got to complete season1 and went on to season2,

but the sad thing is it isn't sorta completed yet.

Which kinda suck. Big time.

And yes, I am still listening to Glee even though I can't watch it. :)

Well, for the cold reality I have been getting these few days,

my imagination inevitably run around the world and a question occurred to me,

What would I'm someone who was born in a dirt rich family,

who would I be and what would I look like?

Well, actually, I asked ting that question, because I don't know it myself.

I got a reply of :

"A girl with many many ipods, mp3s, headphones, earbuds, shoes and cds and maybe an over-sized closet of tees that don't make sense."

True. But yet sad that that's true :(

Your friends always knows the worst of you.

PS: this is a very random post, because I seriously feel lik blogging, but my life is starting to take its shape like a broken recorder that only seemed to repeat itself again and again. :)

I thank the lords for everything.

I am seriously going to lose my mind.

My mind is like an ultra filter with super big holes that filter all the things I have to remember in my head! First, it's the apple cable, then it's the charger. Then it's that. What else man!

But luckily I had you like Mickey had Minnie. As a friend :)

Just had a mind threatening experience. Carelessness was all that caused it.

My carelessness for that fact. If not for blessing for god for any of that matter,

If you would know me well enough, you would that I am one good person that hates preaching, but somehow, there's no other theory that could really explained what happened today.

Me being able to hear the honking of those speeding cars, best, able to react in time when they were charging over all lightning speed.

OMG was all I can say even now. Thank you.

Be it for all gods that Blessed me from above,

or you, that simple ordinary girl that has always seemed to be there each time for my ups and down.

Thank you.

Glee Glee Glee :D

HELLO PEEPS :D

Yep, it's back to square one, back to blogger.

But decide to change a new domain after all,

]since that was really one of the reason I wanted to get out of that blog

SO RELINK!

If anyone were to see it first before I tell you about it :D

It has been long since I ever blogged, so I seriously dunno what and how I should blog now.

So, BYE! :D