Fat oily rants.

Being fat was never really an issue to me, so what I'm fat. I'm still me. The problem about being fat is about having to not look good in anything but cheap and ordinary clothes. Anything other than that, forget about it ughh. For us, nothing is trendy, nothing is new it is not that we don't have fashion sense like those of you fashionista out there. It is that everything we wear will make us look like a big round ball. 

As much as I hated that part, being fat is also one of the reasons I'm always looked down upon. Why? Don't ask me. I never understood that part either. Being fat doesn't mean we don't have a mind, a heart or a soul. We too, like the pretty humans out there, have feelings too, so stop being all out there trying to damage our confidence when we don't even have much left in the beginning.

Today's incident just made me clearer to my lost goal. I was lost, but thanks to your one glance. 

I will prove it to all that once looked down to us. We are like you too. Being fat doesn't make us freaks. 

It is time. I hope I push it through this time.

加油吧，Shermaine. 你可以的。

语无伦次。

Spent a day doing nothing, wasted I should say.

To be honest, really had the feeling to go out and gym, it's really time to get back into shape, can already feel all the fats climbing back to my ass and tummy. Pants are all getting tighter, BUT then again, the haze's really making it a difficult mission impossible. 

You could call me a 天生贱骨头 maybe, always wanting to do the wrong things at the wrong time. 

Like feeling to practice a difficult song in the midst of a sore throat and cold, doing housework while having UT the next day waiting, and like to day, having the desire to run and lift weights in the midst of this horrible haze. HA, well. That's me. :D 

Welcome to my world. 

Maybe it could be the haze, that I wasted a day sleeping and watching videos, watching variety shows ranging from 康熙來了all the way to 百变大咖秀. Yup. I am that weird. However watching all that, made me started thinking. 

韵味，气质，这两样东西真的是一个人不可缺少的。

Seriously,  applicable to whether being yourself, or just simply how the world is trying to be anybody else but themselves. This two things are a MUST HAVE and thinking back, it is also this two things that made me fall for the artistes I once or still inspired. 

Sadly, just so sadly to say, I am still one common individual that has still haven't found mine. 

Sadly to say, I think it's hidden in that layer of fats in me. To be honest, I never thought that being fat is something to be sad about in the past, but as I grow older, being fat is seriously a disadvantage. 

Being fat, you walk slower than people, you don't look good in ANYTHING, some people think that you're just dumb and worthless. WELL. It's my fault anyway that I become fat. :/

YUP. Pretty self- explained.

Hi y'all.

Seemed really long since I have made a decent post about anything huh? 

Life have been hectic ever since I have last genuinely updated in like April? O.O Didnt knew what had gotten into me, but just didn't had the mood to got to update even though there was really a considerable amount of things to update. 

For one major one was going and coming back from a school trip to china, two regarding my graduation, three that I will be going to be twenty-one pretty soon and that I will be holding my second ever party in my life; first being the one when I had when I was one :p and four, stepping into a new stage of life where I will be recieving education from a private institute. 

Seemed like pretty much going on huh?

Yeah, I think so too. Maybe that's the reason why I am not feeling the mood to write anything. 

Nah. That's not true. 

I'm just most of the time busy and moody over things. Well, a lot of things. Too much that I don't know where to begin anymore. :/ 

Well, blame no one since I am not good in anything to begin with. 

Not good in doing sales, handling stress, studying and the things I love. Just not good in doing anything in general. 

Hmmm. 

Life. 

Where are things always greener on the other side? 

And here comes my mood swing again, making my mind go viral again about how unfair life is. 

Till then. Bye. 

It's on!!

Seriously hope that it would turn out fine. :|