朋友。

对我来说，朋友这玩儿，总是可欲不可求。
它会在你最没有防范和准备的时候偷袭你。
有些友情会好的，让你感谢老天爷把他们次给你，让你觉得你是世界上最幸福的傻小子。
不管怎样，每一段友谊都会刻苦铭心，　
可是天下无不散的宴席，时间久了，友情会平息，会淡忘，甚至消失。

死党变成了好朋友，好朋友变朋友，而朋友变成匿名的朋友。

可能有一天，你会发现那个人已经不是那个会担心和关心你的那个人了。　

所以，我只能说，珍惜每一段真挚的友情，因为你永远不知道老天什么时候要让他们离开你。


珍惜吧，孩子！

Sometimes in life, not everything's your fault.
Although sometimes, depending on how you see it, might saw that you're in the wrong.
But guess what? Everything happened for a reason.

Everyone had come and make an imprint in your life is essential, for if he/she hadn't come into your life, you would not be who you are.

I am happy that all these happened. Cheer up. If you saw this. You know who you are.

Don't blame on yourself too hard. You are you. I like and befriend with you for who you are.

THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER, THOSE WHO MATTER DON'T MIND.


REMEMBER THAT.  

Muscle cramps.

DAMN THE SQUATS AND JOGS. 

MUSCLES ON MY THIGHS AND BUTT HURT MUTHAFCUKING BAD. 

STILL HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO DO MY WORKOUT. 

SIT-UPS AND PUSH-UPS FTW!!

Just hope that my tummy wouldn't hurt as badly or else...

OR I DON'T HAVE TO MOVE AT ALL. 

AND I WILL MOST PROBABLY DIE OF PAIN. 

I WILL SURVIVE!!

PS : This is a contradicting blog post as the pain has probably turned the blogger into some nonsensical person. 

I'm not kidding.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED THAT THIS IS A POST OF LONG NONSENSICAL RANTING.

How time can change one person's perceptive.

In the morning, I psycho-ed myself to never let food, be my source of comfort again. Never. I want my new life, my new self and I am going to get it no matter by hook or by crook.

But now, I just wish I can gorge myself with the food I love, because you know what? No one cares!!
I'm telling you. No one cares. It's said that, yea, my friends and family supports me, restricting me what I should eat and shouldn't eat. But guess what? When it's time to work out, they all pull out from it.

"I am tired." "I needa get this done by tonight." "I just ate, sorry."

All these excuses from time to time, given and shoved straight to my face.
But what can I do? Make a big fuss?

And when I do get my workout, I am being pinpointed at. "Your method won't work." "You're not doing it right." "You can go faster." "I did better that time, so you can too."

You know what? _|_
What's your ever highest weight huh and what's mine? Want to compare?

Every weight adds an extra effort I have to take to move my freaking body.
Why not you walk in my shoes huh? Add the weight on your body and see how it feels like?
See if you can "DO IT BETTER".

It's funny how a side of me understands that you are tired, you don't need this workout, you are just entertaining me, accompanying me so that it makes me happy, because you know that's what I want to do and this is what I want to do, it's none of your business, I shouldn't blame you. I should be laughing to myself you're trying your very best to workout together with me and that I shouldn't give up because its for my own good.

In this journey, I have conquered many temptations, having people eating things that I can't eat and having to eat alone, because I care. Having to tolerate with the pain that is so pain that I have to limb while walking. I have become so much stronger on the way.

But another side of me is just sick and tired, be it your excuses, the temptation, the aches I have to get everyday. It's crazy. Then again, maybe that is you, what can I do? You have the power to make the whole house be working out with you. But I can't.

So why am I trying so hard, when no one cares? NO ONE CARES. I am running out of motivation myself. So what I am 19, still wearing clothes like I have no motherfucking fashion sense. So what if I get fatter and fatter till the whole world shuns me, and I die with some freaking complications from some small disease.

JUST FORGET IT. FORGET IT.

Giving up.

I guess, I really have to give up the thoughts that food makes me happy.
Food is battery. Food is battery for me to live. Not to make me happy.

I can do it. I will do it.

But the intense workouts and the comments that my methods are wrong are really pulling me down. GAWD.
I must strive on!!

刚心血来潮的想写写什么，才发现原来我已经好久，好久没有更新博客了。
可能因为很多元素；例：忙，懒，累。

可是现在想了想，好浪费噢，因为忙，因为懒，还是累。就错失了机会。没能把好多值得纪念的事情记录下。有一丁丁的小遗憾。

现在先记录一下也只能用简单的文字带过就算了。
因为，过了那么就，当时的感觉也都不在了。可惜呀，可惜。

It's the holidays!! :D

燥了好久，久等，该死的暑假来了!! ヽ(´▽｀；)/♪

Though it's not really considered to be anything major or long, more like a study break in disguise coming to think that UT2 would be soon haunting me after the holidays end, but I'm kinda enjoying it. d(-_^)

Watching dramas after dramas, animes after animes, it's kinda SHIOKKKK~ 

Not to mention, outing after outing. I feel like a caged animal finally let out of my damn cage! ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ

Time really passes so fast. I have to say, even though I hate to admit it. 

It seems like I have just came back from Bangkok not long ago, being in the freshman in my second semester. 

Now, I am on my year2, 5weeks more before the whole semester comes to an end, with my 2012's trip coming in a month's time.

*Saying about that it's 5 more days to X'mas. Guess what? No mood. （－－）*

I think at this rate, I would soon become an old hag. 

真的是岁月如流沙，想要抓也抓不抓住。(>_<)

Saying about time, it;s already about 2-3 weeks since I have started dieting and workout. 

Can't imagine that I have finally made the decision to make that change. 

Starting to eat well, stop eating that much or as frequent as I used to. Controlling the kind of food I eat, the time I restrict myself from eating. 

Forcing myself to do at least some form of exercise before the day end.
 (even though I haven't done today's, shall do sit-ups before I go to bed)

My gymming buddieeeeeeeeeeee!! (ノ≧┏Д┓≦)ノ

*Like I said music has never let me down. Be it destress, emotional breakdowns, sleep, even working out!!!*

But still not feeling or seeing any results yet. Somehow, it's really quite demoralising.
Ever since then, I fear to stand on the weighing machine, really fear that after I stand on it, knowing that I haven't even losing an ounce even after the hunger and such.
I would lose all forms of strength and determination.I am really scared.

But I cannot give up. 死都不可以。ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ

For me, or for the people who support me and care for me. 

The aches that I have suffered every time I worked out, the hunger and cravings I have suppressed. 

我会加油的。(￣^￣)

I will make it to the end, with a healthier and slimmer me! 

ー(￣～￣)ξ NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR 2012!!

Have you been so sick of fried chicken that the smell turns you off?

I know I have been. :s 

From KFC to Texas chicken, because of deals and deals and craving to craving. 

I think I am sick of it already :x 

*Even wanted to puke when I smelled it on the bus just now :z* 

Just by looking at it, explains my weight gain recently and thanks to it, I think my throat is not in a very good condition already and thanks to JJ's upcoming new song, it would be the first ever song that I would not be able to handle. Thank you fried chicken. Thank you my lousy vocals. Thank you for everything. 

*Edit : Actually, I think it's more to the vocal that I blame, I bet JJ would still be able to sing this song again even if he eats like fried chick for like 2weeks in a row. Pure talent is pure talent. Nothing beats it. He's good, he improved, he became better. I am lousy, I improved, I became good. See the differences?* 

Arghhhh, gross much to me now :x 

I am so not touching it again till this feel actually goes away. OMG. 

My cheeks are so fat now :( 

Did my nails~ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Finally and successfully did my nails. LIKE FINALLY. 

Have been wanting to do my nails up, but here and there, still didn't get to do it. 

Be it, due to the god-damn failure PP or simply due to me not being able to sustain my patience, ruining it before it dries. ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ

Wanted something bright yet, something new that I didn't try before, therefore, used the shatter that I bought not very long ago even though I know Mom didn't liked it very much. :x

Didn't succeed the first time when I wanted a hot pink base with it. It didn't shatter very well and ended up looking like some shit. (*￣m￣)

But who cares, was too bored watching drama, ended up doing my nails whilst watching it. 

I swear you will need a skill of a ninja if you want it to turn out really nice!!

It dries and cracks really fast, so if you want it to cracks nicely, you have to ensure that every stroke have to be thick and accurate, or else, bye bye~

*A bit like doing calligraphy, dip, stroke across canvas, dip, stroke, dip stroke...*

Okay, I am blabbering nonsense again. Shall stop now.

Really don't know what to blog nowadays, life's really repetitive; wake up, go to school, buy breakfast, eat, lessons, eat, end class, eat, go home, nap, do RJ, surf net, sleep. The cycle recycles itself. (;¬_¬)

So what else is there to blog? Nonsense. HAHA. 

So much for reading my nonsense!! (☆^ー^☆)