爱自由，怕孤独的巨蟹座。

好久没写篇了，我那些经常看我部落的人也因该被闷的全跑了。

最近也没概什么，也不就忙上学，忙上课，忙着帮朋友们办生日，忙着看看自己将来能上什么大学这类的事。

最近真的为了很多事在忙，脑袋瓜都快暴了。

可能是开始觉得这世界也没什么美好可言了吧，人的人心显恶，学校里的人际游戏，我真的很累了，累的阵阵开始相信了一位朋友的经典句子。

"Believe me, alone never die." 一个人有时真的比起和你一些会让你感到孤单的人。

可能是付出的累了，不管多努力也得不到相同的回报，也可能只是害怕有一天会在遭到伤害，慢慢的，对好的朋友，拉远了距离。对新的朋友也封紧了心。毕竟付出了那么多年，受到的伤害也够了。谁对我好，我知道，也心领。拉远了距离也是因为珍惜，害怕着彼此会产生厌倦，总害怕着失去。

但是矛盾的是，虽然想要铁了心，还是默默的付出着，仍然的渴望着，仍然等待着，等待有一天肯为我付出的人，关心我的人。

好吧，想了想，那好像也超过了朋友的界限，肯定是偶像连续剧看多了，受了正在听着的情歌影响了大脑，脑子不清了，胡思乱想。

*Sigh* 难过，没安全感的时候，也真想抱着坚固的身怀大哭一场。

好啦，好啦，我这个不知好歹的巨蟹座也应该去睡了。

Class roster.

So holidays are ending very very soon, having to just worked most of the holiday through, I should say, I didn't really got much out of it, so much of which, most of the things I learnt, see and felt all came from work.

Well, at least the pay was okay. Money is the root to all evil. Hiak hiak. (Self consoling in progress)

Finally having to see my class roster, clearing most of the mist of how my next semester would be taking shape into, I should say I am both glad, but yet, afraid again.

Glad, that I at the very least got the blessing of the Gods above that I didn't have to be in the same class of Dark claws of smart of wits, but ended up with another class, which seemingly, seems to be less dangerous, but yet, seemed to be very deceiving to me, especially with the case that I will be stucked a lot with a group of people I really just hope to be got over and done with. Gosh. Just save me.

I am not one that always pray. I am not the kind of person you would call Holy.

But please, Gods from the above skies, bless me with the power and energy to survive next semester, and let's hope not to get as socially politically involved, keeping all these shit to the bare minimum.