Hey blog.
I don't really know how to start writing, but I kinda really wanted to write something today and I am gonna just leave it as that.
Remember when I told you that things went amazing 2019-2020 for me. Yep. Sadly, I am back at the bottom, feeling like shit as ever.
Things have turned pretty rough since I have left RP. I can't say that I regret it honestly, but I can't say it's the right decision ever, because things have unravelled itself, alot.
Mental state's kinda been pretty rough since I left. I had that I have been in this mental meltdown almost like 24/7. I hate that my mood is kinda taking this ride in the theme park. Sometimes. It's great! Sometimes, I am sobbing without any reason.
Talking doesn't really help anymore, because I am just in this repeating maze.
I have all the answers, but I don't want those answers, but I don't know if I want those answers.
Sometimes, I can't breathe. Sometimes, I can.
People say it's self pity... which makes me feels like a joke.
I really hate myself. Really.
